I tried meth and went gay

I tried two things i thought id never try in my life. Im 29 clean cut, straight as an arrow. I drink occasionally, no drugs. I went out to a local bar friday night, had a few beers, played some pool. While i was there i met an older guy that challenged the table i was playing, i ended up playing against him and he beat me. We started talking and he asked if i wanted a line of speed. I was hesitant but i figured why not. We went to his truck and he made up 2 lines, he hit his then i hit mine. I had no idea what to expect. I put the straw up to my nostril and sniffed, i mustve done it too hard, it burned immediately. I thought i fucked my nose up. He told me that was normal. By the time he closed his truck door i could feel it hit me. I was wide awake, i swear i could hear better. We walked back inside and it was like a sensory overload. I could listen to multiple conversations at once. It was a bit overwhelming. I started to play another game of pool but realized i wasnt interested at all. A guy close to my age walked behind me passing by, he had to turn sideways to sqeeze by me and he rubbed against me and as insane as it sounds it turned me on. I instantly had thoughts in my head about being touched. I had decided i wanted to do something nasty, just go all in, why not? I left the bar, took an uber back to my apartment. I immediately turned on gay porn for the first time ever. I was fascinated, i started jerking off, i would be hard as a rock then soft, then hard again. I signed up for a cam site, was letting random people watch me play with myself, i was spreading my cheeks on cam and everything. I didnt have lube so i was using shampoo as lube and fingering myself. I was totally out of control. I stayed up til the sun came up before i finally just passed out. I woke up naked, my dick was raw, i felt like total crap. This was two days ago. Im so confused at this point.. am i gay? Was it just the drugs? I definitely want to do it again. I cant get it off of my mind. I swear if there wouldve been a guy around that night i wouldve been all over him. I wouldve done it all no lie. Now that im sober i dont really feel that way though. I think im going to give it another try next weekend. If i hit 2 lines i bet id be up for 2 days jerking off lol. Anyone have experience with this type of thing?

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