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I just started to remember my trauma
I just started remembering my sexual trauma and it kinda turns me on. So I've talked about this to my therapist once or twice but when I started to remember more details I stopped talking about it. I'm 26f now but back when I was a teenager and probably younger I guess, both my dad and my brother used to force themselves on me.
Now I don't exactly remember my dad doing things, maybe I'd suck him off or whatnot but other than that things get hazy.
My brother on the other hand I can remember more. I remember the curve of his dick and how he'd make me beg for it even though I hated it. He'd cum inside me too, before I was old enough to even worry about being pregnant. Some details are still a blur like the timeline of events and when or where things would happen, but I can still remember how we'd make bets like if I could do something I'd get to hang out with him, but if I couldnt do it he'd get to do something sexual to me. I usually always lost.
Now to this day I think about it and often pretend that when I'm masturbating that it's my dad or brother fucking me. Is that wrong. Am I crazy. Should I start talking to my therapist again.
I have been able to reconcile my sexual trauma response because of my loving and understanding partner. I also had the opportunity to relive a traumatic experience with his guidance encouragement and support. I was able feel empowered and was able to reclaim myself. We turn things that's happened to me into things that I chose to let or make happen.
Hey there. I’m sure we can make you relive those memories. I started my sister young too
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You just need to find a new daddy to give up control to and let him rape you until you can fully remember the good old days :)
BTW how old were you when it happened?