Do I Have A Choice Here?

So I'm 17, female and I'm still a virgin. My father passed away unexpectedly a few years ago and my mother hasn't been the same since. Neither have I but she's spiraled out of control. She got really depressed and her personality totally changed as well as her attitude towards me. At some point she started drinking a lot and then started sleeping around and often times when she's at home she's drinking constantly. She pretty much wiped out my dad's life insurance in no time and she basically ignores me now and doesn't care what I do. I don't even recognize her anymore and it's been really hard seeing her this way.

About four months ago she actually got a steady bf who is now our primary financial support (I work but I don't make a lot and have to hide my money from her). She seems to have improved some since she started seeing him but he's not exactly what I would call a good guy as he drinks a lot as well and I'm pretty sure he's cheating on my mom. To make matters worse he's also started hitting on me and he literally told me he knew I was a virgin and really wanted to pop my cherry. I've been very insistent that his behavior towards me is unwanted and inappropriate but he keeps doing it and he's becoming more physical about it. I threatened to call the cops if he didn't stop and he just laughed and said they wouldn't believe me because even my mom would deny anything was happening.

That really upset me so I confronted my mom and I found out that he had asked her if I was off limits and she told him no. Wtf? I used to be everything to my mom and now she doesn't even care if her bf basically ends up raping me.

I decided to leave and I've been staying with of my friend's families for a while but my mom's bf is stalking me. I finally did file a police report about it but nothing ever came of it. I can't even go to my mom's house to get my stuff because I never know if he's going to be around. He seems like he's pulled back on stalking me since the police report I filed but I'm worried that just means he's being more careful about it. I'm so stressed and paranoid that my grades are suffering and I might lose the college scholarship that I've been working towards.

My friend and her family have been very supportive and said I can stay with them for as long as I need to. Feels like I lost both of my parents the day my dad died and I feel so broken.

My mom's boyfriend has never been in direct contact with me since I left but I guess my mom gave him my number and now he's texting me all the time and saying if I just come home and let him "be my daddy" then everything will go back to normal. My friend and her parents said I should go to police again because I have evidence now but he's never texted me anything explicit so I don't know that it would be enough to actually get him in trouble and if it doesn't get rid of him he's going to get pissed off at me and possibly be even more dangerous. I'm so scared and hurt and I don't know what to do.

I feel so tired and defeated. Should I keep resisting and fight back using the texts he's been sending me? Or should I just submit and become his second hand fuck toy and try to enjoy it so things will sort of be normal again?

Besides my friend's family I literally have no where else to go as both of my parents were single children and my grandparents are all deceased. I have no family to turn to.

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