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I Ruined Myself
I'm a woman in my 20s and I've been married to my amazing husband for six years. We've known each other for a long time, grew up in the same church and we both saved ourselves for marriage. Since our first sex on our wedding night we've had a very satisfying sex life together and have been very happy and were going to start a family soon.
Three months ago I was away at a work conference on my own. I've never entertained advances from other men. The conference was for two weeks and right from the start there was this one tall, bearded man, very handsome and well built. He was flirting with me casually from day one but I pushed back on his advances. At first. He wouldn't stop and the flirting got heavier as the days went by and I felt this electric chemistry between us and slowly caved and started reciprocating.
By the end of the conference our flirting had advanced to physical touches here and there. On the last day he boldly kissed me and I just melted into him. I quickly became very horny and filled with desire for this man. I knew it was wrong but the temptation was so overpowering that I couldn't control myself. We ended up in his hotel room and we were all over each other as we stripped. My mind was screaming for me to stop this but I just couldn't do it.
Turned out he had a much bigger, thicker cock than my husband and that pushed my desires over the edge. He fingered me to orgasm and then ate my pussy to orgasm and then the next thing I knew he was on top of me in the bed sinking his cock into me. His size felt incredible and he pounded me passionately. I had two orgasms in like ten minutes and then he went balls deep and unloaded inside me raw. The experience was amazing.
As soon as that post sex/orgasm high passed the guilt hit me in the chest like a freight train as I thought of my husband. What had I done? I became distressed and quickly got dressed and left. I went back to my hotel room and broke down. I literally cried myself to sleep that night.
The next morning I took my planned flight home. The trip was a blur of time and I just felt numb and empty inside. When I got home my husband could something was off. He asked me if everything was ok and I just told him I was tired and the conference had been really stressful. I sort of avoided him for a couple of days before I went back to being intimate with him. Something was different though. The connection we once had in bed just wasn't there for me anymore and all I could feel was guilt. Worse still, I increasingly found that his smaller cock just didn't physically satisfy me anymore. It just got worse with time and I would often break down while he wasn't around and just sob uncontrollably.
It's been almost three months now and no one knows what I did but I've become very depressed and withdrawn from everyone. We haven't been intimate in weeks and he knows something is wrong. It's so unlike us to not have an open dialogue in our marriage and he keeps pleading with me to tell him what happened and he's very worried about my mental state.
I can't bring myself to tell him what I did and I don't know how to move forward. I know our marriage is over because why would anyone forgive such a betrayal?
This is your secret until he confess his. don't throw away your marriage. you don't know your hubby reaction. simply ask the lord for forgiveness and continue living. I was brought up in a religious school and the guilt almost drove me insane. I am human that can resist temptation a little but I cave in too. I will not let a good sex ruin my life or relationship. Don't waste a good dick or orgasm. you had erotic experience and I wish it was me in your place.
Confess to him, then invite your husband to go out and find another woman that he can shag hard for a night. Once you're both 'guilty' of extra-marital sex, there's nothing to feel guilty about.
Pretty sure it doesn't work like that. At least not for everyone.
First you need to forgive yourself. This was just a sexual pleasure you experienced, not love. Only you can decide if you want to tell your husband or just forget it ever happened. If he really loves you he will forgive you. At first he will be upset and angry. I know from first hand experience. I forgave my wife and we have been together for another twenty years. Good luck either way. I'm always here to talk with you and bounce ideas off of with no judgement.
Cheating is horrible and wrong that is why no relationships last or have trust anymore. Pathetic.
It’s just sex, I’m male upper 60s. I traveled a lot when I worked. Never cheated. Retired now and I travel without my wife on occasion. I think I’ve met girls to fuck on every trip without my wife, if I’m gone several days, i see many girls. It’s just sex. I’ve met married girls and single girls. It is lots of fun being with someone new. I have great memories of sec with some really incredible girls. I still want to live with my wife, not the girls I’ve fucked on the side.
You did nothing wrong. You enjoyed your time with someone new, sex is fun.
It's just sex!!
I think you've been wanting a divorce for a long time and this is the excuse.
I'm 47 and I've had countless workplace affairs over the years. As far as I know, my husband has no clue. HINT! I never deny him and I always come home to him.
I've had guys that were much bigger or thicker or longer and I've insist all wear a condom. My husband is the only man I allow to go 'raw' and unload inside me. That's the deal.
I love having sex with my husband! He knows my most intimate spots and we have amazing chemistry.
I also love a random romp.
Sex should be fun! Not some taboo 'oh I'm married and my husband is the only one allowed in there!!'
I agree 100%. I am male, upper 60s. I've had lots of affairs with women when I travel without my wife. It's just sex, sex is fun, sex with a stranger is really fun, one night stands where you meet and are having sex tithing 10 minutes of seeing each other is really, really fun. I am still married, sex with my wife was great but now her health does not allow intercourse. So I still try to get it when I can. Having sex with someone does not mean you love them and want a life with them, it's just sex. Having a life and sex with the same person is great, but having sex with someone else is also great.
You have to figure it out. But you did nothing wrong. It is your body and you get to have sex with who ever you want.
I agree. I started dating my husband when I was 14 and he was 15. We got married shortly after I graduated high school. His uncle got him a great job in the union, and we moved away. When my daughter went to kindergarten, I got a job to keep busy. I worked with an older gentleman who mentored me and became very good friends. No, it wasn't him, but when I met his son, a couple of years younger than me, it was fireworks, electricity, chemistry, call it what you will but he was a living Adonis. All I could do was think about him and then felt guilty because I did. Then the occasion happened that I was with him alone and it was like it was destined. Neither one of us hesitated and I had the greatest sexual experience that I’ve ever had and afterwards I felt guilty and depressed.
Lucky my company had mental health in our insurance. It took me almost 18 months to realize that yes, I’d become unsatisfied in my marriage, really wanted a divorce but was afraid to ask. I know it sounds selfish, but then taking care of yourself is a bit selfish.
Tell your husband the truth, and then get a divorce. You know that’s what is going to happen, it happened to me, I am now on my second wife for over 45 years. She actually quit a job , due to some stud trying to fuck her. Came back to me because she truly loved only me.
Kegel exercises will get you back in shape and you can squeeze down on your husband enhancing both of your pleasure.