What is your deepest, darkest secret that you've never told anyon

I had 3 or 4 pyt's when I was in my 30's. I wasn't hunting for youngins but I'd meet them online and just keep communicating and something would happen. First one would sneak out in the middle of the night all the time, so one night I came and got her. She was as tall as me and thick but well proportioned. Nerdy look with a little school girl skirt on. She wound up pregnant shortly after (not from me).

2nd one, I didn't want to know her age and only found out later. Another tall girl, an athlete, slim with tits that sat really nice. We went at it for hours. I was able to glide in anally with no effort and she took it like a vet. I think she was giving it out like candy. She was easily my best sexual encounter of any woman I've had.

3rd one begged me to drive out to come smash her. She was a talker and at one point while going at it, asked me, "do you love f**king this teenage p***y?" I did it in her bedroom in her parent's house and looking back, that could've went seriously bad. Very stupid and reckless.

4th one is up in the air, she said she was 18 but she was in HS still. She was selling herself for $60 on the hush hush but I probably could've kept her around w/o paying if I had the bandwidth to really deal with her. She was actually pretty cool and her body was divine.

Pretty much all one time encounters. I didn't want to press my luck. I realize I am attracted to young, sexually mature girls but I wouldn't risk it these days. All the girls were active already and I found them to be almost more forward than grown women.

Use to play online with Omegle. Got passed a few times but got a few that would show and play with me. Got a handful of snaps and continued for a bit. Almost got one a dildo since she was using everything as one.

I missed the Omegle era but I love searching up those videos on porn sites. I met one on an old social media site and two on YT back when they had the DM feature. Girls were making dance/twerk videos and I often couldnt tell who was what age from the neck down in bra and panties. Last one was more or less a referral that happened to stay up the street.

My cute little cousins always had a crush on me and when she was 9 and I was 13 I fingered her. I couldn't help it she had on panties with like lace all over the butt part and it just happened, it was a first for me too. Well I thought she's forgotten about it but she didn't....
Last week (2-years later) it all came back and I ended up fucking her butt cause she wants to stay virgin. Is it gay cause I did?

I licked my son and daughters privates when they were in diapers

I have told a few but not who they were. Got caught up watching my friends daughter and she had peed the bed. Had to wash her and change her but didn't have a complete set of clothes given to me. Put hers in the wash but she was without underwear in a dress. Was embarrassed at first but forgot about a short while later. Kept getting flashed by her and while watching a movie had my arm around her. She fell asleep and leaned to me and pushed her bum into my hand. Tried to move but she didn't like it so sat like that till the movie ended.