My Mom Betrayed Me

All my posts keep getting taken down on reddit because apparently the admins think they're fake. So now I'm on this weird fetish/confession site. And I can understand if you don't believe it but it really makes me feel even more helpless to know that no one will even believe me. I have no one to go to. So I ask anyone who may see this, if you think this is fake, please just ignore it. I really cannot take anymore blows to my self esteem. I'm not in a good place right now. Anyway, it started back in 4th grade when this kid brad always picked on me. He wasn't quite a bully yet but he was definitely annoying and a headache. My mom always thought he was an annoying brat. Fast forward to middle school and now high school this piece of shit literally takes every chance he gets to just verbally assault me with the cruelest shit. And yes he has beaten me up on a few occasions. My mom has always been supportive of me and helped me a lot with dealing with the bullying. I can honestly say she's helped my mental health so much because she's always open to talk to me. My mom is 39 and is a conventionally attractive woman. And oh boy does Brad just not shut up about how she's a "milf". It seriously pisses me off. Probably more than it should. When I bring it up to my Mom she just tells me to shake it off. I feel like I'm just venting at this point, but anyway Brad beat me up about 2 weeks ago at school. The worst beating I've ever gotten. My only real injury is a black eye but my whole body aches. The school called my mom and she demanded that brad be suspended. And of course he just smirked. Mom took me home and said how sorry she was for all this and that I don't deserve to be treated like this. We have, or had a close relationship and she always was there for me. Until 1 week ago when everything came crashing down. I had just gotten out of the shower and I was scrolling through tiktok when Brad messaged me on messenger. I rolled my eyes and clicked on the message. It was what I thought was a porn video. I scoffed and thought he was just being an annoying asshole like he always is sending me porn for some reason. And then I clicked on the video. I regret everyday since then that I even gave him the time of day to click on the video. I wish I just blocked him and never saw it. But I clicked on it. Not 3 seconds in, I immediately recognize the voice of the women in the video. It's clear as day my mom. My heart fucking dropped. I dropped my phone on my bed and just stared at it a few feet away as the video played out. I could barely see her but I could make out her face and voice. I could hear both my mom and Brad giggling. Maybe 20 seconds into the video I just turned my phone off and had a panic attack on my bed. I still cannot process what I saw. I haven't looked at the video since. I've cried in my room for the last week. I've had panic attacks whenever someone messages my phone. I can't even look at my mom without feeling like I'm gonna puke. I still can't believe this is my life. And why my mom would fuck it up. In one weeks time I've developed severe trust issues and can't look at my own mother without having a panic attack. I have been skipping school and my mom is getting concerned. I have no one to talk to. I don't want to bring it up to her. I've never felt so betrayed and alone. There is still a tiny sliver of me that wants to believe that it wasn't her and brad in the video. But every time i think of it I remember her face looking back at the camera for a split second and her voice. I am not doing okay mentally. I just needed to share this so it's not bottled in anymore.

By Anonymous

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