I'm inlove with my friend's mother

My mom’s friend (Sandy) was our next door neighbor. Their house was literally 20 feet from ours. Mom was divorced. Sandy was 32 at the time. Mom worked 2 jobs to support us, my brother and sister. I would babysit for Sandy when her and mom went out to the bar or club. The both of them we often return drunk, and needed assistance to get to bed. While the kids slept I would search through Sandy’s belongings, clothing, personal drawers. Of course she noticed, one night she actually pretended to be drunk, and like always after I get her to bed, I would feel her up, smell her, lay next to her and hold her, and that’s when she confronted me, she questioned me on everything, going through her drawers and cabinets, closet, laundry, and how I violated her by feeling her up without her permission. And once I said I was in love with her and fantasized about her, stealing her panties and clothes to jerk off, and looking for nudes, she kissed me on the cheek and said I know.

FYI Sandy is a stay at home mother of 2, white female, 5’7”, D cup tits, husband is a lawyer and always working or traveling. But the following week she returned from the bar, and said mom won’t be home tonight, and she whispered, come over when your friends go home. I didn’t have to watch the kids that night, they slept at the grandparents house. I went over as instructed, and she said let’s fuck. I had only been with 2 girls at that time, barely knew what I was doing, but she educated me. For years she made all my fantasies a reality. We even had sex when her husband was home sleeping.

She even got a special tattoo of my favorite animal with my work ID, had a fake wedding, she is now 61 and we continue to make special moments together. She was my special guest the night before I was married. She still wears our wedding rings on her right hand, with the date of our first time together engraved on it.

The best sex I ever had was with a former co-worker that was 41 at the time. I was 25. She was a traveling RN and my job was delivering medical devices or go with her on days she would need help with heavy lifting. She was a typical MILF. Long blonde hair, light makeup all the time. Mom bod with nice booty and tits. She wore fitted scrubs that showed off her body very well.
She was married with two early teen sons. Her husband was obsessed with golf and would take the boys on travel trips all the time.
I noticed she liked compliments and it didn't take long for us to start some flirting that some would fell was inappropriate.
During lunch she was depressed and told me her husband was taking the boys to a golf tournament out of town for the Fourth of July week and she would be home alone all weekend. I invited her to watch fireworks at my apartment complex we were having a pool party. She hesitated at first but I kept telling her I'd love to see her in a swimsuit. She smiled and agreed. She arrived wearing a knee length denim 'mom skirt' loose t-shirt and flip flops. After a few drinks and snacks she agreed to cool off in the water with me. She took off her skirt and shirt and OMG She looked hot in her 'mom bikini'. We cooled off and had drinks while standing in the water. As it got dusk, I told her we can go up to my place to watch the fireworks and shower if she'd like. She was giggling and agreed. Once in my apartment, I showed her the bathroom and shower. She stared at me as she removed her bikini and we had sex on the couch. I remember thinking her pussy was the softest and wettest I'd ever stuck my raw cock inside. I offered to use protection but she told me her tubes were tied and we had no worries.
We secretly had sex for three years after that.

I hope the last part is just click bait for shock value.
Other than that, my comment is 42 is not too old for a woman to have a child and start over with a younger man.
I say this because I'm 42 & remarried a younger man 27. After a discussion with my OB-GYN he agreed I'm healthy enough to become pregnant. So right now we are getting in a lot of 'practice' time. lol
I divorced my husband when I was 39, I found out my husband was paying a sugar baby on the side. We have one child together that's now a teenager. I always wanted more but my husband only wanted the one.
I met my current husband at work. I was turning the big 40 and depressed from all that had went on in my life recently. He was 24 at the time and just got out of a long term relationship. His high school sweetheart graduated college and informed him she was bi-sexual and didn't want to marry him.
We went to dinner and something clicked between us. We went back to my place and had sex. Much needed on my behalf by the way. Our relationship progressed and almost one year later we decided to get married at the courthouse. I always told him I would be willing to have his children because his parents want to become grandparents. By the way, I get along with his parents very well.
Last year we decided to go for it.
You should talk with her about having your children. You might get surprised.
Removing something from her body (IUD) is a sure way to ruin what you have going for you. I know I would probably report the violation to the police. I hope that's just a joke. Good Luck

Repeat after me: “I am a cougar facing mid-life crisis”. That’s a fact jack(queline)

Hey the cougar has wild urges and needs.

Agreed. OP is out of his mind to want to do that.