Am I normal?

Hey everyone, my name is Lisa for my story and I have questions about my life and my craving for both guys and girls.

I’m now 32 and I find that the older I get the stronger my cravings become. This is my story and a bit about my life. If there are others who have similar stories please share your comments. I honestly believe that no other woman has the same strong feelings for sex.

First, I grew up in a very religious family where sex was never talked about unless it was to condemn anyone who was engaging outside of marriage. I was taught that I must marry as a virgin.

I did everything possible to get out from the pressure of my parents to be the perfect person and never color outside the lines. I was always very active growing up and by mid teens I was tall at 5 foot 10 inches and thin but teased by others about my size.

I joined a gym in our town that was for ladies only and within walking distance of our home. I spent as much time there as possible and I was befriended by an older woman who was training to become a fitness model. As wonderful as she looked she was never a success.

I started training with her and we became friends very quickly. Within two years I had become the girl who all the guys were looking at and the teasing was gone. I was still very lean but I had a ripped body that showed sleek muscles that I was very proud of.

I began wearing clothes that showed my body and of course my parents were constantly complaining about it. I soon learned to wear clothes over my outfits then take off top layers once away from the house.

At 19 I had been with a few guys but not sexually active because of my strict upbringing. My friend Jill from the gym told me she was moving to a different town to work at some big company and asked if I was interested in a job there too because she could likely get me in. Long story short I applied and moved in with Jill much to my parents displeasure.

I was 19, in a larger town now and living with my friend who was 10 years older but such a wonderful person. We joined a gym together and now there were guys there too. Both Jill and I would wear outfits that showed off our bodies very nicely and we both were often the eye candy for many guys.

The apartment complex we lived in had a pool outside. The first weekend there Jill and I were laying out getting some sun. The topic of guys came up and Jill told me she was interested in guys but not a relationship. She asked about my desire to meet guys and I confided that I had never had a penis in my body before. She was so nice and kind and supportive. Jill and I talked about guys and sex for quite a while then we walked back to our apartment in our bikinis.

Back inside Jill sat me down and asked if she could share something special with me. She began the conversation by asking me if I knew how to please myself. I didn’t understand completely so she boldly asked if I knew how to masturbate to orgasm. I was very shy about it and told her that I’d tried but wasn’t sure about the orgasm.

My sheltered life kept me from experimenting and I had never watched anything online about sex very much at all. Jill explained in a very positive and loving way how we should love ourselves and please ourselves and that we were given the desire and ability to want and receive pleasure for good reasons. She went on telling me about how she had learned long ago how to please herself and that she had shared her love with others. She explained that sharing was simply being together in a room together exploring and enjoying oneself while having the support of another person who is also loving herself. Jill asked if I would be comfortable with her sharing her experience with me now and if I wasn’t she understood completely.

I was more excited right then than I had ever been in my entire life. All I did was nod yes and smile. Jill reached forward and gave me a hug then took my hand and sat me down on the sofa. She said she would be right back and returned with two big towels that we’d had at the pool. She laid hers on the big armchair across from me then stood for a moment before saying she was very happy that she could share this beautiful moment with me.

Jill looked directly into my eyes almost the entire time. She slipped off her bikini and even though I’d seen her naked before, this time in my mind she was nude and beautiful. She sat back in the big armchair and smiled looking into my eyes. She parted her legs and explained that this is the place she would focus on while placing two fingers together on her clit.

Jill began rubbing circles on the pleasure spot telling me that it feels really nice. It wasn’t long before her breathing became louder and she began to make little noises that I knew were because of the pleasure she was feeling. She then moved both legs up and onto her old chair’s arms dangling her feet with legs wide open. Her hand moved with deliberate motion over her hairless puffy lips and her hips began moving back and forth ever so gently.

I watched eagerly as my desires climbed to heights I’d never felt before. I could feel the wetness inside beginning to drool from my lips . Before long Jill began panting and her hand picked up speed. Her hips were moving much more aggressively now and she began making noises like I’d not heard before. Her breathing became faster and faster then she announced her upcoming orgasm with “I’m coming… I’m coming… oh I’m coming” then I watched with amazement as her body jerked and twisted with orgasmic delight. Her body was arching back and twitching in pleasure while she whimpered softly. Slowly her body began to relax as the shivers of orgasm subsided. This was so wonderful for me to watch and experience such a beautiful moment with Jill. That moment is etched into my memory now vividly and hopefully forever. I can still see her beautiful body twisted in pleasure and her rib cage pressing through her glistening soft skin. She had much larger breasts than I have and they were gorgeous and firm.

Jill regained her composure and sat up straight in the big chair. She looked at me with a big beautiful smile and said thank you for letting me share this with you. She paused and softly said, now it’s your turn.

Jill told me to just be patient and to do exactly what she did and not to expect anything but to just enjoy loving myself and sharing with her.

I stripped off without saying anything then sat down in a cross legged yoga pose. I placed my finger to my lips and the wetness was like I’d never felt before. My juices were running down my lips onto the towel. I began rubbing just like Jill had and within a very short time it began to feel incredibly good. I had locked eyes on Jill and I saw her face had a soft smile and her mouth kept opening every few seconds while her eyes shifted from my hand to my eyes.

Soon I could feel this tingling sensation in my lips and my body began moving without my conscious intention. I had moved my feet to the floor with my legs wide open. I remember watching my hand moving fast and pressing up high on my toes like I was opening up to except my incoming orgasm. The tingling became stronger and stronger and soon I felt the most powerful and amazing feeling I had ever felt in my life. I pressed my toes hard to the floor then orgasm ripped through my body like a train passing at high speeds.

The feeling was incredible and my body was writhing in spasms of delicious orgasm that I hoped would never end. The joy was more than I ever imagined and even though it was not, it felt like it lasted a very long time. As my orgasm subsided I felt very strange almost like an out of body experience. My mind was slightly foggy and I began feeling these jolts running through me like small electrical shocks. My entire body would jump every few seconds and I couldn’t control them. It took almost a minute for my body to recover. Jill came and sat beside me asking how I felt. I told her amazing and gave her a big hug.

That day was the beginning of an amazing journey together. We would openly masturbate with each other or simply on our own out in the open never hiding from each other. There was never a day would pass that we would not indulge in self love and if time allowed we’d be together for about an hour and sometimes more.

Jill soon met a guy who she brought home for me to meet. They’d make love in her room and I could hear them clearly. I’d masturbate listening to their vocal expressions of passion.

A few weeks later Jill told me that she wanted me to be a part of their relationship and make love with them. I was very excited and had been dreaming about it already. Ted was incredibly fit and his penis was perfect, cut and a joy to suck and feel inside my body.

This relationship turned me to crave cocks. The first time Jill encouraged me to swallow Ted’s come I did and I loved it immensely. Every time we were together I’d ask for him to finish in my mouth or I’d lick his semen from Jill’s pussy.

Jill married Ted and they moved out. I was left with a craving for women and sucking cocks. I crave giving pleasure and the reward of semen in my tummy. I’ve had only 5 guys in all and 4 women but I crave them constantly. I masturbate sometimes 4 or 6 times in one day and can give myself unlimited orgasms each time if I want. Still I’m craving constantly.

My question to everyone out there is, am I normal or am I a freak? I think about sex most of every day.

I’m going to masturbate now and dream of my passion for semen and licking clits to orgasm. Is this normal or excessive? Either way I can’t help my cravings. Thank you in advance. Lisa.