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I want to blow him
We've been friends for a long time. I know he doesn't think I would do anything gay because I've been keeping it a secret since, well... childhood. I hide it well and I think it's more exciting that way. It's never been anything but "straight" since we've known each other. I gave up driving (just because it's too expensive for my shitty pay) so he often gives me rides when I need them. We smoke weed and laugh a lot. Now, I never think of my buddies that way because I don't want to accidentally give away my secret by staring or not laughing at one of their stupid queer jokes. (This friend doesn't make them!) But something happened recently to make me start thinking about him. It seems he has a big dick! He came to pick me up one recent hot summer day. He was wearing shorts and as I got in the car I noticed something I never noticed before. The sun was shining at just the right angle and I could clearly see his cock laying against his leg beneath the thin cloth! Again, I didn't want to get caught looking but it was only a few minutes before I got a chance to check again. Getting coffee in the drive through when his attention was turned away I got a chance to stare. No it wasn't an optical illusion or a trick in the folds of his shorts. He's got a big cock! It was long even though it was just laying there! Ever since that moment I have broken my rule about not thinking about my friends that way! I want to know how big his hardon is! I want to measure it in the most fun way possible - by how far it goes down my throat and how wide I have to open my mouth when it's down there! Now whenever we're together I think about what it might be like to suck on his big cock! Especially in the car when we're sitting close. It's right there, I could just lean over and give him a blowjob at any moment! And when we're just sitting around smoking joints I wonder if he wouldn't rather take that big cock and fuck me in the mouth with it! (Maybe he'd like to get sucked off while he smokes joints.) The reason I'm writing all this is because I gave him the perfect opening today but he either passed it off as a joke or he just didn't get it. We talk about a lot of things but he always talks about sex alot. This time it was about blowjobs coincidentally. About how he hates it when the chick is just jacking you off while she sucks on the end of your dick. He had a video to illustrate. He held up his phone to show me a girl with enormous tits jacking a guy off while she sucked on the end of his dick. Duh. As we watched I made this casual comment: "Yeah... I never do that." He just kept staring at the video shaking his head. Nice tits but he didn't like that girl. There was no reaction to what I said. I got it the first time but he had to show me another video. Wonder of wonders, it was a girl with enormous tits jacking a guy off while she sucked on the end of his dick. She obviously doesn't really like sucking cock. I agreed, adding: "If the guy's cock was that big I would enjoy the feel of having the whole thing all the way down my throat." He just nodded and stared at the video. Jeez! He had no idea that what I actually said was the truth both times! I know I was blushing. My biggest secret was on the line! I had just practically told him that I suck cock but he didn't see it that way. He thought I was talking about the big titty girlies. In his mind what I said was a joke, I was just putting myself in their place. I wanted to scream! At that moment I almost told him that I REALLY never jack a guy off while I'm sucking on the end of his dick! And that I really DO enjoy having a long hard cock all the way down my throat! How about YOUR cock, idiot!?! I wanted to tell him to shut up, stand up and come over here and fuck me in the face instead of showing me stupid videos! He could have taken my comments seriously and I would have admitted to him that I want to suck him off. I guess maybe it's my fault for making him believe I'm totally straight. Having a secret means never telling it to anyone... ever, right? I risked revealing my secret today. Maybe he will think about what I actually said while watching those videos. I said that "I" never jack a guy... that "I" would enjoy the whole cock, etc... and realize that I actually meant it! If I just tell him outright that I want to suck his cock then I'm risking a good friendship. He might not like the idea as much as I do! I don't think he would tell all of our other friends but I can't take the chance that he might. What do I do? How do I ask? What do I say? Can you tell me what scenario will end up with his cock being in my mouth? How can I give him blowjobs and still keep my secret?
If you really want that cock, you need to do more than talk. A lot of guys trash talk saying things like I would suck that cock, but are saying that to get a laugh or maybe shock value. Years ago I wanted to suck my best friend… he was someone I knew since before grade school. We did everything together and it wasn’t until I was in my teens that I started having fantasies about what it would be like to suck a cock. We had joked about sex for years… stealing his fathers playboys and even jacking off together. One day he brought over a new magazine (not playboy) and it was the first time I saw a woman giving a blowjob. I was instantly hard and wanted to be that woman. I even joked about it, but he never acknowledged it. For weeks all I could think of was getting his cock in my mouth. I devised a plan, I challenged him to a wrestling match. As we rolled around on the grass I let him pin me several times. Most times he was on top and I would purposely move my head so his crotch was close to my face. Finally I said if you pin me, I will do what that girl did in the magazine. He looked puzzled for a second, smiled and said ok, but if you pin me I will be the girl. It didn’t take long and he had me twisted and pinned. His cock was practically bulging out of his shorts. I reached over and released it, giving me full access. He eased the tension from the pin and said I am going to enjoy this. I sucked his cock and let him cum in my mouth. He didn’t say anything and left. At first I thought I had gone to far. The next day he came to my house and asked if I wanted a rematch. This time I pinned him and he did the same as I had done home the day before. Turns out he was thinking the same as me and that’s why he showed the picture in the first place. Maybe your friend is trying to tell you something… you just have to do more than talk.