Spanked and humiliated by gf
I had a 20 year crush on a female friend who I met in university. She was 15 years younger than me, and I fell in total love with her. But, she said no and wanted my friendship. We became very close over the next 20 years. During a bad breakup with my gf, she asked me to rent a room from her. I moved in, as a friend. We became close and she learned about my many fetishes, including spanking and rape--both as submissive. Her mother learned of my secret desires and one evening her mom was visiting and we were drinking when her mom started to remind her of the many times that she got the belt, right up to the age 16. I heard about 10 different spankings and that really embarrassed her. She flipped out and brought up my spanking fetish and her mother asked some questions and then said let's have a spanking session for me.
She told me to bend over the table and tied my hands to the table and then lowered my pants and embarrassingly my panties. She got a belt and proceeded to give me the hardest and most painful spanking of my life. I screamed, cried and begged and was totally humiliated. Afterwards, mother and daughter laughed at me and I now understand that I will never be with my 20 year crush.
I enjoy women's sexy lace panties silk or satin and boy shorts I like to print around in them and wonder if anybody knows I would like a guy to give me a massage while in my panties I want to know what it feels like to be touched by a man