I have lustful fantasies with my uncle.

I'm a 21 year old girl. I did have a boyfriend once, he was an online boyfriend. It wasn't that serious. We ended it early.

That was nearly 10 years ago. I was only 12 at that time.
Ever since, I grew up as a dead inside girl who never wanted to date anyone else.
Suddenly, (18y.o me) one night I was horny, before I could type in a porn site on the searchbar- the image of my uncle Larry's (fake name) face popped up, completely out of the blue. It came in like a flash of light.

And then....

I felt an arousal.

I felt butterflies.

I was immediately hit with the most lustrous feeling I've ever felt, I was immediately wet. My stomach felt weird. My heart was beating hard. It was uncontrollable...
So, I watched few porn involving fake uncle x niece intercourses.
When I pictured the male actor as Larry and the female actor as me....
I got even more hot. I came 4 times.
That was my first fantasy with Larry...
And ever since, whenever I watch porn- I can't get an arousal until I fantasize about him again. I would always successfully finish. Because of him.

I'm completely fucked up. Honestly, no offense to Larry....
He's not even 'that' attractive.... but- from what I've gathered after being used to seeing him around ever since I was a child- his personality is extremely charming. He's like 30+ years apart from me. I know its very fucked and I'm not even gonna try to justify my fucked up home-wrecker behavior and feelings.....
But...when I can't control something...im just bound to live with it.
Like my depression. For an exemple.

Honestly, I really want this sick fantasy of my uncle to permanently go away from my heart..
I just know, it will fuck up my future relationship and sex life with my future boyfriend.
I dont want to fantasize my uncle while he is doing me.
Hell no.
But this is hard for me.
Idk what the fuck made me....this....weird.
Is it my past abuse? Is it my mentality? Have I gone crazy? Am I just trying to latch onto a good person just to cope with so much abuse I've endured from my own family members??? Am I just....weird?

This is all.
I've kept this for 3 years now. Thought it was time to let it out.

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  • That's sexyy

  • A coalition of prosecutors, domestic violence groups, anti-trafficking organizations, child advocates and mental health experts sent a series of letters to President Donald Trump on Wednesday urging him to stop the execution of Lisa Montgomery, a mentally ill woman who suffered extreme childhood abuse, including incest, physical violence and sex trafficking by her own parents.
    In 2004, Montgomery, the only woman on federal death row, killed Bobbie Jo Stinnett, who was pregnant, and abducted her baby. Montgomery is scheduled to be executed by the federal government on Dec. 8. If the execution occurs, she will be the first woman to be executed by the U.S. in nearly 70 years.
    The letters ― there are six total, with over a thousand co-signers between them ― ask Trump to commute her sentence to life imprisonment without the possibility of parole on account of her significant mental illness and history of abuse. President-elect Joe Biden, who will take office a little over a month after Montgomery is scheduled to die, has pledged to end the federal death penalty.
    According to sworn statements by family members, Montgomery was a victim of severe physical and sexual abuse as a child. Her stepfather began to molest her around the age of 11 and then began raping her, which her mother attested to witnessing in court at the time. As a teen, Montgomery confided in a cousin who worked in law enforcement that her parents were allowing other men to rape her as payment for work done around the house

  • What to do if you have experimented with your sibling?
    If you have experimented with your brother and sister and it was consensual but you feel bad, here are some things you can do.
    If you do not want to do it anymore, make it amply clear to your brother or sister that you do not feel comfortable doing it.
If they persist and try to convince you, try to get some distance from them and talk to a grown-up you trust, one of your parents, a relative, just someone that might intervene and tell your sibling to not insist.
    Try to back off from the relationship anyway, sexual relationships, especially when your body is still growing and you do not have adequate knowledge, are dangerous.
Try to get some sexual information from an adult, a teacher, a relative you trust, or a doctor, but make sure you are making informed decisions about your sexual health.
    If you feel guilty and afraid about what you have done, you can talk to one of your parents or try to see a therapist, they will never discuss what you have told them with your parents and they can also give you sound advice.

  • Helplines for Sexual Abuse
    If you are in a situation where you feel you are being sexually abused, by a sibling or anyone else as well, there are resources you can use, and you can get help and get out of the situation.
    Here are some websites and helplines for sexual abuse if you or someone you know is going through such a thing.
    Darkness to light
    Raising Children
    This website that contains a number of helplines may also be useful.
    In addition, you need to try and find an adult you trust and let them know immediately that you are experiencing this, so they may try and remove you from the situation.

    Emotional Reactions and Behavior of Incest Victims

  • Abstract
    This study looked at the emotional reaction, behaviour, appearance and trauma experienced by incest victims. Subjects were 10 female victims of incest. The data collected was based on semi-structured interviews and observations. The process of transcription and analysing the interviews was conducted using content analysis. Three category of emotions shown by the victims were sadness, stable and absence of grief. Behaviors shown were passive and stable. Victims appearance were properly dressed with hair neatly combed. Two victims were acted rough and masculin. A total of five victims suffered trauma due to repeated nightmares and three victims attempted suicide.

    #THE REAL SIDE OF INCEST

  • ❤️incest

  • Fuck off lady balls you sick fuck.

  • An Elwood man, convicted as an adult of incest committed with his older aunt, was turned down last week by the Indiana Court of Appeals in his claim that his attorney should have raised a statute-of-limitation defense in his trial.
    The man was 23 in 2007 when he had consensual sex with his then 34-year-old aunt, according to court records.

    The Herald Bulletin isn’t publishing names because of the nature of a sexual crime.
    Both the man and the biological aunt were charged with incest, Class C felony, for the incidents that occurred between Nov. 1, 2006, and Jan. 31, 2007.
    The man pleaded guilty and was sentenced in Madison Circuit Court to six years with two of those years on work release and the remainder suspended to probation.

  • Almost every week we report a fucked up story involving something along the lines of incest, bestiality or just people generally being absolute filthy fucking dirtbags, and every week I think we’ve finally found the biggest and most perverted sexual deviant out there, then another one pops up out of the woodworks, upping the ante with their weird fetishes and proving me wrong. Peggy Phillips is this week’s entry in the category of Most Fucked Up Sex Pests, and she takes the accolade by a long mile.
    The 43 year old woman – of Pasadena, Texas – is charged with sexual assault of a minor after allegedly shagging her own nephew, to quote the court documents, ‘hundreds of times’. What’s worse is that the first time they did it the kid was lying in a hospital bed being treated for an unnamed ailment. The boy told police that his aunt:
    Police say that the affair continued when the boy moved in with the aunt and her husband  – who was also his uncle – to escape ‘a bad situation’ at home between 2007 and up until 2009. During that time Phillips also sent numerous indecent images of herself to her nephew, accompanied by messages of a sexual nature.

  • You are a fucking guy writing this fake crap. Here jack off to this ass hole.

  • You are not weird at all. Your uncle may not be good looking but there is obviously something about him that appeals to you. Two options, you can either keep it a fantasy and enjoy the thought of it or see if there is a possibility for sex with your uncle? You only live once!! You are not the first to feel this towards a family member and you certainly won't be the last.

  • Fuck you lady balls You are telling him to break the law and to live a mentally scarred life ass hole.

  • I stand by what I've written

  • So you feel better when someone else stoops down to your level. You sick fuck.

  • ♥️ incest

  • Yes, you are fucked up but leave Larry out of it and get help.

  • It's time to discuss it with your therapist, Honey.

  • Therapist?? Whatever for? 🙄

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