I need him

I never told anyone this, but I was a precocious girl and, at 13, I had my brother take my virginity (he was 16 at the time), after trying to seduce a much older cousin into doing so (he was 21 and didn't want to get into trouble). We enjoyed each other so much that we kept this casual sexual relationship going on for over a decade: we both had our own relationships in public, but it was convenient to have sex to experiment, practice, figure out what we liked and up our sex games. By the time I was 18, my brother knew exactly how to give me mind-blowing, earth-shaking orgasms, and I knew how to make him cum in 3 seconds if I wanted to. He had cum on and inside of me in any conceivable way: in my pussy unprotected, he also took my anal virginity and I was the first woman whose throat he filled with cum. He was particularly fixated on my body: I'm very thin, with not much of an ass to speak of, but my breats were very large from a very young age, and to fuck them made him crazy.

Problem was, I became too hooked on him, and while my sex life elsewhere is very good (the aforementioned cousin started fucking me too shortly after I turned 18), it's never been mind-blowingly good. Only my brother fulfills my wildest, dirtiest desires and can give me the orgasms I talk about. So when he decided to end it to be serious with another woman, I wasn't happy, but I respected it. Now I'm in my 30s, doing ok, but very unfulfilled in general. I ran into him at a party last week, we both got drunk and started to get cuddly, but I couldn't go through with it (In the end, he couldn't either). It's so frustrating because I can't stop desiring him so bad.

By Anonymous

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