My friend age 70 liked to watch me masterbate

Dude, I'd tell you to get a grip, but, you seem to have that part down. Seriously, get some help and leave religion out of it. There are people out there that can help you and it won't come with any stipulations, no ascribing your sexual makeup to some higher power, all you have to do is be honest, willing, and present.

I have searched online and around my county for free help and have been laughed at by professional people, even told yes to get a grip on my life. But people speak without having any knowledge about sexual abuse and the suffering addictions that many have after the fact. Sexual addiction is said to be that of a drug user but twice as hard, I know its like a drug and us who face it are unable to stop without real help! It becomes a need for even nastier, and nastier stuff a drug if you can say to make myself get high from the rush of the hormones. The act of ejaculation and the cum spurting and shooting out and my cock stiff overtakes me, and nothing maters but to see and hear my load release. But then the need for nastier sex happens like eating my cum or usin it to contenue to masterbate get hard onve again on and o untill my cock is limp and hurts. Even my abuser could not believe how long and hard I could do nasty things. This is not something I chose and for no reasoning I will find my cock getting hard and it stays hard for hours, I can not help when it happens, and I even get sick if I do not realese my load. Religion is a very big part of it, because those that abused me as a child and as an adult are of my faith. Yes the church as a whole is screwed up! but I will noy give up on God, thats why I may never walk into a church again. My faith is not about the people, but the people many times have hurt me. It is very hard to find real but free help for my severe addiction, you must understand that people and help today is all about money and insurance. Try calling places and telling people you have sexual addictions it can destroy your reputation, if you do not believe me try it, I haven't completely given up and am trying one last place.

You sound lovely and I am sitting here this morning in my frothy vintage pink nylon nighty with my cock erect thinking of masturbating you 13 times a day, I would love to help you.
I would kiss, lick, and suck your lovely penis and let you cum over my pink silk French knickers to your hearts delight!!
You are not insulting your religious beliefs, you are a good and lovely person with a huge sex drive, and very lucky to have that capability.
I am all male but have developed breasts with exercise and medication over the years, they are now a size 38B and very playful. I have a slightly above average size penis and beautiful full testicles.
I live on my own, am lucky to be well off, dress and go out as a woman in nice clothes and I live in the UK.
I have three married boyfriends, one of them is Jack my very randy neighbour who came on to me one day in our apartment lift. He recognised I was a transvestite as we were standing so close.
Jack is over 70 years old, takes Viagra, has a huge penis and loves to have me when I'm dressed in 50's style lingerie, with stockings, suspenders and lots of lacy frothy underskirts. I know he is in love with me as he wants to bed me three or more times a week.
Like you I have a high sex drive and love to feel a man I know and admire thrusting his erection into my bottom while at the same time masturbating me as I crouch on all fours with my underwear pulled up over my waist and my silk knickers pulled to the side of my plump bottom.
Please post me a reply, but a nice one.
Signed Jasmine

I wish I was one of your boyfriends.

Part 1.
Its Boxing day here in UK and after I posted the last message I went to the kitchen and as I passed the front door I noticed a piece of paper on the mat. I picked it up. It was a message from Jack, he wanted to visit after lunch as Ethel was going to her sister.
I showered and made myself pretty as usual after breakfast, then chose some white lingerie. Well, I know Jack likes white, so I picked a satin full suspender and dark chocolate nylons, drapery lacy silk French knickers as Jack loves the feeling of them when he is thrusting, a satin lacy bra and the most gorgeous vintage silk lacy full slip. I put them on.
I went to my wardrobe and selected a see-through chiffon blouse with small black polka dots and a full silk 40's skirt in black to contrast with the white lingerie. I dressed and put on a pair of white strappy high heels and stood in front of my six full length mirrors.
It had taken me an hour to prepare for Jack and I looked wonderful. I could see the outline of my bra and slip through my blouse with my two lovelies pouting underneath. I gently lifted my skirt and lacy silk slip and saw my erection throbbing beneath in my lovely drapery silk French knickers.
There was a knock at my door at 1.30 and I looked through the spy hole, it was Jack. I let him in, shut the door and we kissed and then he stood back to look at me. Jasmine darling you look amazing, so delicious and sexy and with that he lifted the hem of my skirt. Oh! lovely stockings over silk knickers what a treat he said and kissed me again and took my hand and we went into the bedroom.
Jack stripped naked in moments, his huge erect penis over those big testicles jerking with eagerness. He came over to me, undid my skirt and let it fall, then while pushing himself against me he undid the buttons on my blouse and took it off.

Part 2.
Jack kissed me holding me close, he had one hand over my knickers on my bottom and the other caressing a breast, I felt his urgent tongue twisting inside my mouth. I felt him lift my slip, I spread my legs to receive that monster penis and I wasn't disappointed. Oh! OH! Jasmine you feel so good. Jack's penis felt hot as I closed my thighs around it, it was hard not to cum myself as I felt his fingers exploring anus as they caressed my bottom.
For about an hour we lay on the duvet, kissing, caressing, feeling each other and rolling about enjoying the sensual feeling of it all, then it felt just right, I lay on my back, pulled a pillow under my bottom, gripped my legs around his waist, felt my knickers pulled aside, his fingers penetrate me first and as I screamed take me take me Jack, that monster penis pushed in.
I ejaculated almost immediately but wanted more, "you naughty, naughty girl" Jack whispered as he thrusted, "OH! I love you so much Jasmine" as that monster penis pounded my bottom. Jack's hands were all over me, my breasts, my stockings, my face and lips, and Jack could really go the distance!!!!
I felt him cum, but he kept thrusting, I now had my legs over his shoulders, I ejaculated again, he was pumping his spunk out of my bottom as his penis was in so deep. I was screaming for him to cum again, my knickers were soaked, then Jack's lips went onto my breast and he ejaculated again while nibbling my nipple.
Jack was exhausted, we kissed, he rolled off me, his huge penis throbbing as I held it, he was magnificent, a true bull. I slept in his arms for a while and then he had to go.
Jack's spunk was the best Christmas present ever!!!!
Signed Jasmine.

I found another note on my doormat this morning, Jack wants to come visiting again tonight as Ethel is at Bingo. He is a naughty darling and what an appetite.
I have all day to plan what I'm going to wear, but I am thinking it has to be a frothy light pink vintage nylon nightie and matching frothy lacy double nylon robe as it will be night time!! Jack will love it!!!!
Signed Jasmine

O jasmine that's so hot I cant wait to hear more i'm wanking so hard over your confesions my dicks already soaked my panties twice

Thank you darling, I'm so glad I pleasured you.
Well Jack arrived at exactly 6.05 straight after Ethel had left in her taxi. I had decided on my light pink nightwear with stockings and suspenders and of course my light pink silk French knickers. My lovely breasts were as erect as my penis just feeling the soft silkiness of the lingerie wafting around my body.
I let Jack in and before I'd shut the door he'd dropped his trousers and pants.
Oh! please hold me Jasmine I want to feel you and kiss you darling, he said almost pleading. I held him spreading my legs and we kissed, Jack's hand was caressing one of my lovelies just pinching the nipple gently. I pulled away and told him to lift his pants and follow me to bed.
I lay on the duvet spreading my negligee watching him undress, I marvelled at his monster penis and testicles and told him so. That's all for you Jasmine darling, he said. Jack came over to the bed up by my face and leaned over me, his penis was so big, with a huge throbbing head, I stuck my tongue out, I had my mouth wide open and I felt Jack slide it in, but I could only take its tip. I tasted salty pre-cum within seconds and Jack withdrew it.
Jack went down to my feet and spread my legs and climbed between my thighs and lifted my bottom onto his own thighs and caressed my stockinged legs, I watched his penis jerking, he lifted me higher kissing my knees then put my legs over his shoulders and took my own erect penis into his mouth. My silky nightie had fallen back exposing my breasts and I took those two lovelies in my hands as Jack sucked and kissed my penis. I was in bliss!!!!!!
Signed Jasmine.

Jasmine, Jasmine, I really wish you were my girly as I would make love to you in your undies until the sun comes up. We could wear our undies together, two she males together. I am 54 and I know I could satisfy you,

Oh! you are a naughty person saying that but I already have three lovers and old Jack is the best.
We rode up in the lift together yesterday, Jack had been shopping, he placed the bags on the floor, opened my coat, lifted my skirt and kissed and licked my penis in my knickers, he was still at it when the lift arrived at our floor and it was a scramble to get adjusted. I did manage to close my coat but walked along to my apartment with my skirt over my waist. He is a greedy boy!!
Anyway, I got another note about an hour later asking if he could visit today at about 11am, so I am going to get a bath now and afterwards select some silkies to wear. Tell you more later.
Signed Jasmine.

Jack arrived on the dot at eleven, we kissed as I shut my front door, he smelt of aftershave and shower gel. I stood back to let him admire me, "you never disappoint me Jasmine" he said and we kissed and caressed, "what a gorgeous blue negligee, let me see under your nightie" and jack fumbled with the floaty hem and lifted it. "To bed" he said "I want to feel your knickers as I fuck you" and took my hand and we went to the bedroom.
I lay on the bed and watched him strip off, that huge urgent penis erect as he came towards me. He spread my legs and negligee out, lifted my nightie and then my legs and his tongue went straight to my anus pulling my light blue silk French knickers aside. With my cheeks spread and Jack's tongue devouring my anus I was in bliss.
"You lovely tasty little girl" he said as he lifted his head, then went down again even more vigorously. I was nearly ejaculating as I screamed for him to fuck me, Jack's saliva was inside me, his hot tongue was lashing my anus and then I felt my legs lifted higher, I could see that massive penis approaching and then he was in me.
"Jasmine Oh! Jasmine" Jack whispered as he thrusted with me squealing with each thrust. "You sexy, sexy girl I'm going to seed you lots of times today" he said between breaths. I clung on to his waist with my legs wrapped around his thighs and I ejaculated but Jack thrusted on cumming not once but three times by the time he had to go. My knickers were soaking my anus was twice the size it was when we started.
We got off the bed, Jack was still erect, we kissed and I held his sticky penis gently in one hand and I was pushed backwards "Jasmine one more time please Oh! please" and he pushed that pulsing rod inside again. I didn't feel him cum again, I had so much spunk in me, but the kisses were passionate and loving and when he said he was cumming he held me so tightly and we kissed and entwined our tongues.
Signed Jasmine.

I met Jack in the local pub last night, he was on his own. He brought his pint to the table where I was reading a book. "You look gorgeous Jasmine, I think I'm in love with you" he said quietly. I replied "Just accept that you love the sex as I do Jack and don't risk your marriage".
Jack looked really downcast, I held his hand and said "just enjoy it as long as you can Jack and if we leave here early you can come back for a quickie". Jack was suddenly transformed, he bought me another G&T and we chatted, We were in a corner and most customers were by the bar and Jack moved round to sit next to me and the table covered any activity as Jack's hand went straight up my skirt. "You naughty darling" I whispered, as Jack caressed my penis to an immediate erection in my knickers. Jack is so gentle he knows just where to fondle. I leaned back and as I looked down I could see his other hand feeling his own penis.
I leaned towards him "not here Jack darling lets finish our drinks and go back to mine". Jack drank his beer. I was so aroused when I got up that I was glad I had a coat on to cover me.
We rushed back home and once inside we went straight to the bedroom. I took my coat off as Jack took all his clothes off. He came over and undid my blouse and skirt and took them off me. I stood there in my white nylon slip, bra, knickers, suspenders, stockings and high heels while Jack hugged, caressed, kissed and pushed his penis against me. "Jasmine, you look so delicious I could eat you" he said as he pushed me onto the bed. I wrapped my legs around his waist as he took me, pulling my French knickers aside, fingering me and then pushing his meat in me.
I was squealing with his thrusting as he is so big, his testicles were slapping against me as he kissed me and as he ejaculated into me I clenched my cheeks tightening them around his throbbing member.
Signed Jasmine.