My entire life I have been attracted to and had private relationships with older men. Considerably older men. I have dated and eventually married a man who is my age , but I choose to be sexually involved with older men behind his back. When I was underage I learned that private sexual relationships were very satisfying and educational. I have learned how to tell if a man is willing to play with me behind my husband's back or if he would think it would be best if we didn't. I have found that single older men are considerably more kinky and sexually ready for anything. They often bring friends who are like minded. I honestly don't think I want to stop it's been a crazy first year of marriage. My only regret is that I have never had anyone to talk to or share my experiences with.