I don't deserve him
I'm the biggest piece of crap in the world. I don't deserve my husband. I deserve to be thrown out to live in the streets. He's so understanding and completely loving I can't understand why. I have done nothing but be a dirty disgusting slut , I have committed some of the most disgusting ,demeaning and illegal sexual act's. I should be thrown in jail. He comfort's me and we talk through it every time. I lay in bed at night in tears telling myself that I can and will stop this madness. Then I do something even worse. Doctors say it's in my head and only talk , I feel like I need medicine or something.