I don't want her
My X wife and I were friends with another couple who's kids were in the same grades in school. J is a very beautiful woman and was always a bit flirty with me, her husband and my wife were aware and made fun of it. I dreamed about having sex with J but I knew she was a fantasy, her flirting was just that nothing would come from it. Now this couple is sadly divorcing, it became ugly as it sometimes does. I never remarried in the 8 years since my marriage ended and she's called me a lot during this sad part of her life. Last week she just showed up at my house, first to complain about her husband, then she told me she want me to have sex with her right now. She started kissing me, I let her go at it and went for those tits I always wanted to feel. After a few minutes I stopped, I wasn't turned on I was disgusted, more disgusted at myself for taking advantage of her being in a desperate state of mind. I told her I would not do anything until the divorce was finished. She seemed ok with it but I found no attraction to her and hoped she'd go away. She told me she was being persued by an older guy, much older, this guy I happen to know. He is a nice guy that lives not far from me and is a widower, I knew his diseased wife, she was a lovely woman too. I saw J's car at his house at 5:30 am when I was on my way to work, I pass his house a lot it's on my route in and out of my neighborhood. I see she decided to hook up with the guy, he's 20 years her senior. I'm glad for all of us, he has the time and desire for her, she has a guy that is a great guy in my opinion and I'm so happy I don't have to deal with her rebound stage. The way she threw herself at me sexually turned me off, she was like a desperate housewife not needing sex, she needed emotional support and was willing to give me sex for it and I'm not good at it, I have a completely different agenda. Besides I'm not desperate, I have a single woman friend who likes sex with me on occaision, it works for us without it being a relationship. I know this woman too long to jump into sex with her in this stage. I know I'd be very sorry if I did, I know we are not meant for each other. I wish her well and hope she finds peace and happieness without me.