Regretting it now

I'm open minded and love being fucked hard and fast.
3 years ago I met a guy, sex was amazing, we were always trying different things sexually.
When having sex we would always talk to each other to turn each other on more.
After a few months I wanted other women to know what I was getting! I wanted other women to be jealous knowing I'm getting amazing sex all the time.
We spoke about it while having sex and it really added to the excitement, I guess he was just going along with it but I was waiting it for real.
One day my fantasy became real and how I now regret it, my boyfriend had no idea what my plan was, I invited a friend for drinks knowing full well if it was to happen she would be willing.
A few hours into the evening drinking laughing etc I started getting touchy-feely with my boyfriend, I then said to my friend, come on let's give him a treat!
One thing led to another and my boyfriend was touching us both, fingering us, kissing sucking our breasts.
All I'm wanting is to see him fuck my friend like he fucks me, I'm encouraging my boyfriend to fuck my friend, a few minutes later he is fucking her, as he is fucking her I'm kissing him telling him to fuck her like you fuck me, still kissing him I could feel him pick up speed and push deep in her, that's it baby I said keep fucking her like you fuck me, my friend was really moaning with pleasure, I felt amazing, my boyfriend said he was gonna cum, he pulled out and I helped him finish.
My friend was laying there panting out of breath, my boyfriend sitting next to her on the sofa and me with a big smile.
The next day the dynamics of our relationship changed for ever.
I now feel as if he has cheated on me, all my feelings for him have gone, I feel lifeless, my friend didn't answer my calls for 6 weeks and my boyfriend and I drifted apart in the same time.
3 years on and I'm still regretting it and wish it never happened.
My own fault I know.

By Anonymous

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