Irresistible

Im also straight, married with kids but have a massive urge to suck a cock, I have even arranged to meet a guy but he cancelled at the last minute

Yes... once you suck cock you are often hooked for life. But -- there are worse things to be hooked on. I'm an older married cock sucker and first tried sucking cock a little more than three years ago. Now -- I suck cock as often as I can... and "cock" is all I think about; morning till night. I've really become quite a fan of big black uncut cock... and am trying very hard to cultivate a BBC regular --- who will feed me cock at least once a week. I have other white regulars to fill in some of the gaps, if needed. My point is -- don't fight it, because I don't know if you will win. Find a couple of nice clean hard cocks and suck them every chance you get. Just suck cock and enjoy it ... like the rest of us do.