No one to tell
My husband is always on business trips and when home , rarely do we have sex. I was feeling alone, frustrated,sad and just plain confused. I'm in my early 30s and was not ready for this kind of a relationship. I made a huge mistake, I decided to accept a few of the many offers for dates. ( dinner,movie's,drinks etc ) from a man I know. He also knows my husband quite well. So we had a fewnice dates and iI was feeling better about myself, when he called all of a sudden and invited me over to try this new wine he bought. I was very eager to fly over and sit with him. He's much older but handsome and I thought very nice. Well we were sitting on the sofa and his hand finally met my knee I turned to him and kissed him. Soon we were grabbing at each other and went into the bedroom and we made love a few times. I went home the next morning I had to admit I felt like a conplete slut. I stopped answering his texts and calls because I was embarrassed as to how far it went. Things just seamed to subside I was happy and my husband was looking for a way to tell my husband what happened and was ready to beg for forgiveness. When I received a text , on the text was me giving my friend oral sex. No words nothing else other than the video. A few day's later when my husband left for work I received another so I drove to his house and was floored when he answered the door naked. I demanded the videos and was quite upset, he invited me in still naked we began to talk , not sure why I caved in but we ended up in the bedroom again only this time I noticed flavored lubes and oils all over his end table. We were doing it doggy style I could feel him pooring oils on my back and ass then without warning the pain of him raming my ass I screamed and was grabbing the covers trying to get away all that ended up doing was giving him an easier access to my ass hole, I finally collapsed in tears as he used my ass. I hate him and have no one to tell. Hopefully it wasn't recorded like the other episodes. If my husband finds out I will be ruined and I would have ruined our lives together. Not sure what brought me to tell the whole world like this but I don't have anyone to talk to.