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Strange confession story with questions
I am a closet nudist exibition coke freak but i need to kick my addiction because i cant control myself anymore.
I dont know what to do because i keep telling myself that i'll be able to relax and do the shit casually like i used to, but every time i get home i smoke it up like a fiend as fast as i can.
I tell myself that im done as i geek like a naked sweating freak, but wind up going again, confidant that i'll just chill and can control myself this time.
I just cant seem to find the high im looking for anymore but still crave the initial feeling.
So im a mid age good looking bi curious male with a slender tone build, tall and twink like with a perfect shaped small but full jiggly ass that i like to shake and bounce around naked.
Ive never been with a guy but have always wanted to try group bi sex in a party or as a slave. I shave smooth from the neck down and have no tan lines. Full head of long flowing hair to the small of my back for pulling during rough doggy and i want to be spanked soo bad also.
Just as much i like to dance naked and dream of public nudity situations for welcoming strangers.
This brings me back to my problem of fiendish use. Its not like im a junkie, i work hard doing outdoor labor and budget my "entertainment" spending, but true im an addy.
Ive done lots of crazy shit and got away with it, just for the thrill, mostly at night, and nothing to hurt others.
So i"ll give an example of why im worried latley. Today i got home mid afternoon, cleaned up and broke out the lil rock i picked up. Did a normal hit, felt nice and got naked.
I live alone and have a semi private back yard so i can walk around in the sun nude. Beyond my fence there where neighbors out mowing grass and such. I felt hot and high on this warm sunny day any thought of prancing out in the open was exciting, so i found myself instinctivly immediatly powersucking monster bellringer blasts untill i had to push it for the finalle.
I was soo fucking high that my dick shrunk to a tiny nub and my tight ass hole was twitching like a horney nypho bitch ready to be gangbanged raw after dirty dancing and oiling herself completly. I wanted to strut out to the main road, do one more blast, shake my ass and spank myself as i blew it out, but thank God i was too high and noid so i just went back inside and fantasized about doing that and worse before i got in trouble.
I dont know what my trip is ,but i feel the only way to get over my weird desires is to live them out someway.
I have some ideas that i"ll publish in part2 of strange cnf story w/?s
Helpfull comments welcome.
I’m in the same boat. I’m straight and clean cut but I’ll do stims from time to time bc I like the effect it has on me. I get so horny that I too crave a male member to play with. But I can totally see how you’d wa t to Slut it up. I get really nasty taboo ideas when I’m partting and I love it.
I used to get this way, really high and horny, so much that it felt painful to hold it in. I'd smoke and do lines and wander the neighborhood practically naked, giving my pussy and ass to anyone who noticed me. I miss those days. It's just not the same sober.