Pain of living
I'm a passable crossdresser. My marriage has ended partly due to this and her untreated mental illness. She asked me to find her a bf. That really hurt. It's not like I can ask her to get me a gf. Not many women like men like me and then there's the trust issue. I don't want my lifestyle blatted all over to somebody's clique on girls night out. I've been very discreet and kept this hidden from my kids (now adults) and because this came from abuse I suffered as a child I see no reason for them to know. I'm doomed to a lonely celibate life and it sucks.
My ex wife always wanted me to put on her nighties and stuff, but I never would. She would beg, but I never did. It would have made her so happy if I would have.
So there are such women out there. I hope you find one.