I feel out of control

I'm 34 and I cheated on my husband for the first time last month. We've been married for 8 years. I didn't expect to continue an affair, and now I have gone from feeling a little guilty to feeling out of control. The guy's name is Yanic, and he's 29. I met him through work and he's hot with a tight, lean 6-foot-6 body. He's also very well-endowed. When we fuck, we fuck multiple times, and I think I've become addicted to his cock and his stamina.

I hit a low last week when I met my husband and son at a restaurant after work. We were supposed to go to a baseball game afterwards, but Yanic texted me during dinner and invited me over. I told him why I couldn't make it, but he replied "baseball fucking sucks" along with a picture of his hard cock. I was shocked but suddenly horny. He's such a confident person it borders on arrogance or cockiness, and for some reason that turns me on so much.

I was little ashamed when I did this, but it was like my body was fighting with my mind. I excused myself from the table to call Yanic, and it didn't take much more convincing. I returned to the table and told my husband that there was an emergency at work and I had to go back. He was disappointed, complaining about not being able to scalp the extra single ticket. I apologized to him and my son and told them I'd see them at home later. I justified it by telling myself they'd enjoy the game more without me.

I drove to Yanic's condo and he greeted me looking hot as usual in a tight cargo shirt. I told him that I really didn't want to sit through a boring 4-hour baseball game, and he just smiled. Then we tore our clothes off and went at it. He fucked me on the sofa, the floor, and again on his bed. I took a shower afterwards, and when I got out he was waiting for me again. So we fucked once more on the bathroom floor.

Driving home that night the guilt really set in. What am I doing? I know it's wrong but I don't know if I can stop.


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  • The wife admitted to being out of control with a guy who was 10 years younger than she was. She said the sex was the best and she loved controlling him and he loved her for it. She admitted she would drop everything and fuck this young stud.

  • I to am outta control by our neighbors 17 year old son who totally dominates me in every way, what he says I obey promptly even tho it has caught me up in some embarrassing moments like when we were in our pool and he came up behind me and removed my bottoms of my bikini and put his hard cock between my legs as the mowing crew continued to mow the grass around the pool and I know they could see what was going on for Gerrard is a blue black and I am white and the contrast is very plane, but did it stop him oh no he litterly fucked me right in front of the others filling my puss with his cum over and over.

  • I to am like you when I'll call him Jim texts me I'll drop what ever it is I'm doing and meet up with him and it's just for sex and I know it but I can't or don't want to stop. This has been going on for the past two years and last August I thought it was ended when he got transferred to another branch of his office out of state but in October I got a text from him and cancelled a dinner date with my husband and met him for a four hour fuck fest. Last week another text and I met him for a 30 hour fuck fest yes 30 hours and luckily my car broke down and had to get it fixed but I called my husband and let him know even the motel which I stayed at even answered the phone when he called at 9 to tell me good night and Jim's cock was buried deep in me as I was talking to my husband.
    Jim has a much bigger cock than my husband and I know that's all it is with me but I can't stop and I don't want to either.

  • Tough thing to get out of once into it. I had a similar thing with a hot, steamy-sexy case nurse I knew (I was married at the time). My marriage wasn't great, but not at the end, either, so, sure..It didn't take much for her to get me to her apartment a few miles away, however..I also bailed out having a diner breakfast with my now-ex wife in favor of going to nurse's place for the day.

    One night, I told my wife I was going out holiday shopping, which, I honestly did. Then, though..Went to nurse's apartment, and fucked like animals until after midnight. It was one of the hottest, active, wild sex I'd ever had, and I couldn't pull myself off of her. Finally, around 1:00am, I left..After tons of hands--on and oral probing at her front door. Went outside, started to pull out, and, boom..Hit the curb and got flat tire.

    After fixing it, I drove home, and, used the flat as an excuse as to why I was gone so long. Wife bought it, helped along by the fact I had store bags in the car. Have to admit, laying in bed that night, I did feel guilty, knowing I'd been in another bed not an hour earlier, with the hot nurse. Luckily, my wife was never big into sex, since, if she wanted to that night..I probably wouldn't have been able to. Was too exhausted from the case nurse.

    I really only got out of it because the nurse woman moved out of state.

  • Get a new hobby.. or try the 6th floor of the parking garage. I hear it is available for intimate meetings.

  • I understand because Imwent thru it too, never imagined I would be so hooked on a man sexually, but I also learned itis very much like a drug, when you want to go left, know you should, promise to, and you lose your free will, and go the other way, again and again.

    It feels good, but its a habit. A drug.

    Also, the stud, he doesnt give a shit about you or your kids, your situation.

    He wants to get off. Period.

  • Your story sounds a bit like a case I was working on not long ago. (I'm a cop in a major US city). Slut wife was doing the dirty just like you. She desperately tried to keep the secret from all her friends and family. Hubby caught on and slut wife tried to have hubby believe she was assaulted and raped, saying practically anything to make it appear the sex was non consensual. Slut wife tried to pass off boyfriend as stalker who wouldn't leave her alone. Long story short, the bitch dropped her guard, was outed by someone from work. This led hubby and family to catch them in the act, (her family really upset and sided with hubby) from there altercation ensued. Boyfriend blown to kingdom come. Jury acquitted husband on self defense, slut wife charged and found guilty of filing false police report, lying under oath, etc and doing time in county jail. Last I heard they were divorced, he got custody of child and moved across the state for a better job. Understand you will suffer the consequences of your actions, whatever they may be. You have a brain and a sense of reason so use it. Not doing so makes you lower than the low life boyfriend of yours.

  • You need to end it now and get some psychological and/or medical help. Quite your job and find a new one and move on. If you don't get help then at least get a divorce so your husband and family can get on with their lives without you skanking around on them. To turn your back on your child for your own selfish pleasure is about as low as you can go. Breaking your marriage vows and betraying your husband is just as bad. Reality is you are an easy lay for this guy and the minute he finds a better fuck you won't see or hear from him again. You are basically a step above a fleshlight for him, another alternative to him wanking like the scum bag home wrecker he is. You have proven yourself to be an immoral slut, have cunt will travel, who obviously cares nothing about your husband, family and all the entailment of a stable married relationship. Get ready to kiss your life away, both here and in the afterlife. Karma is a bitch and you'll get hit with the worst for what you've done.

  • Stamina coupled with a long thick cock is a deadly combination. I know. I am a stay at home mom and the next door neighbour works night shift and is home during the day when his wife is working. He came over one day on the pretense of borrowing my husband's drill, but what he did was pull the biggest cock I had ever seen out of his pants and asked me if I would like some. Things have not been the same since. Gawd! Long lasting big cock is so gooooood!!!!

  • I will second and third that motion.

  • You're with a subpar beta male and you crave a dominant sex machine Alpha, just like me. You should have said your boss called you back to the office and let your bull Yanic breed your pussy. Don't turn him down again or he will probably drop you off his booty call list. Life is too short not to get fucked right.

  • Hahah stfu

  • I discovered my husband with his best man on bed a week after our honeymoon; was so devastated and on the verge of leaving the marriage then. Throughout courtship for 2 years, I never suspected them. Hubby begged asked me to leave if I wanted to and bragged that he will not drop his "heartthrob". Well I was encouraged by a friend of mine not to leave but to use the "weapon of love" which does not fail. I began to fast and pray and ask God earnestly to restore the man I married; to heal my home. It took 2 long years of agony but what happened next was stupefying, it was the "heartthrob" that found Christ first and broke the relationship. Next, the heartbroken man had nobody to lean on but "his wife" and that she did. It was the grace of God in nursing the heartbroken husband that made him to experience salvation and the desire to "go through a man's butt" left.

    Many a time, we can achieve a lot through love than hate.

    1 John 3:15 Anyone who hates a brother or sister is a murderer, and you know that no murderer has eternal life residing in him.

  • He still likes getting with men. You will catch him at it again. I hope I am wrong.

  • You only live once, have as much sex as you can. Why don't you want to have your husband do the same thing to you? I am sure if you hired a sitter for you son and instead of going to dinner got a hotel room your husband would screw your brains out. My wife and I do that all the time but I know she also has had affairs in the past and has been telling me that the new guy in her workout class is awesome. I do not want to know if she is having sex with him or not but the fact that she is always happy and never turns me down for sex makes me happy. So keep on fucking all you want because you only go around once.

  • You only live once.

    What a copout.

    You only pive once amdso the choice you make, the promise you make, to the ine and only one, where you hoth enjoy and esplore esch orher fully, always growng, always loyal, thick and thin, is what makes the only liveonce with ONE so special.

    He or she had so many choices but cose just each other, again and again.

  • Wrong, you don't "only live once". There is a life after you die here. I have been there and it is awesome. the fact is that if you live like this lady, you will only suffer in the hereafter!

  • 19 “There was a rich man who was dressed in purple and fine linen and lived in luxury every day. 20 At his gate was laid a beggar named Lazarus, covered with sores 21 and longing to eat what fell from the rich man’s table. Even the dogs came and licked his sores.

    22 “The time came when the beggar died and the angels carried him to Abraham’s side. The rich man also died and was buried. 23 In Hades, where he was in torment, he looked up and saw Abraham far away, with Lazarus by his side. 24 So he called to him, ‘Father Abraham, have pity on me and send Lazarus to dip the tip of his finger in water and cool my tongue, because I am in agony in this fire.’

    25 “But Abraham replied, ‘Son, remember that in your lifetime you received your good things, while Lazarus received bad things, but now he is comforted here and you are in agony. 26 And besides all this, between us and you a great chasm has been set in place, so that those who want to go from here to you cannot, nor can anyone cross over from there to us.’

    27 “He answered, ‘Then I beg you, father, send Lazarus to my family, 28 for I have five brothers. Let him warn them, so that they will not also come to this place of torment.’

    29 “Abraham replied, ‘They have Moses and the Prophets; let them listen to them.’

    30 “‘No, father Abraham,’ he said, ‘but if someone from the dead goes to them, they will repent.’

    31 “He said to him, ‘If they do not listen to Moses and the Prophets, they will not be convinced even if someone rises from the dead.’”

  • I to am out of control.
    Last summer I did the wrong thing and let our neighbor have his way with me but I was teasing him for 2 months and it all led up to him taking me on the pool side in our back yard now I can't live without his cock daily. I don't want to.
    We have sex in his house, on my bed in the back yard during broad day light even to the point of letting him have a quickie when my husband is at home he's in the living room watching some game on TV and I'm doing the dishes or so he thinks but I am being fucked hard and getting Jerry's cum right there at the kitchen table. I can't say no to him for I love his thick 8 inch cock and my husbands a lot smaller and don't give me the thrill of my neighbor's.
    We have him over for dinner often and sitting at the table he's always playing with me beneath the table out of sight but I can't control my feelings for I have even cum on his touches right in front of my husband but so far I have managed to hide it from him but how much longer can this go on before we are caught and then I may loose my husband but I can't help giving myself to Jerry.

  • I'm very happy for you... You sound like a very exciting married woman!


  • You are going to get caught sooner or later if you keep this up. Is the sex so good that you are willing to lose your marriage and break up your family? As soon as you husband leaves you, Yanic will tire of you and move on to the next pussy. Its a classic tale.

  • I'm just using you as a cum receptacle and I'm sorry too, and I can't stop either.


  • I'm 30, also married 8 years, but despite my efforts and intentions I'm still a cheater (lifelong). I was engaged when my cheating cost me one future with a great man. I swore I'd change and I thought for sure I would. But when I had a second chance I cheated again inside a year of our marriage. I know what you mean about being out of control and I've had a few examples where I've left or cancelled plans with my husband and kids to have the kind of thrill that only cheating or taboo sex can give women like us. I do feel remorse. I do want to stop. But when I realized I couldn't I just made certain that the cheating was always convenient, where I wouldn't get caught, and not just plausible but part of daily routines so that nobody would suspect. The problem now is that I don't think there's any turning back for me. The guilt continues to grow but I've made it so easy I can't stop myself, despite the fact that if I'm ever discovered I'm certain I'll lose everything. Be careful sweetie. If you think you can live with the guilt then go for it and make it work. Otherwise, stop now before you lose everything.

  • You are a disgusting piece of shit. It is bad enough to leave your husband for an evening out, but your son??? Awful slut.

  • ^ ditto ^

  • Once you start you really CANNOT stop. Not ever. I know what I'm talking about.


  • Yes enjoy! Enjoy! I'm enjoying just reading about it because I have other men too and boy do I enjoy.

  • I love the relationship that you and Yanic have. I hope you are able to continue it. Good luck to you both!

  • that feeling of being 'out of control' like you said is just the best isnt it? that sense of being swept up into something so romantic and beautiful and hot and thrilling and overwhelming and unavoidable!!!! yes by all means please do continue your affair with yanic! i mean you really cant control it so stop trying! just relax and go with the flow! my guess is that your husband NEVER made you feel like this am i right???!? i had several affairs when i was your age and i loved all of them. they didnt all make me feel like yanic makes you feel but some of them did and that made it okay and it made it worthwhile. your lucky......you found yanic first so you dont have to go through all the searching. get on that dick and dont get off!

  • You haven't done anything wrong. You want Yanic and he wants you. Period. That's all you need to know in order to keep driving to his place and fucking in his bed. And in his bathroom. And on his floor. And on his sofa. Fuck him until he's satisfied you every time you go over there, and then drive home feeling fulfilled, not guilty. The two of you are filling one another's needs. Don't diminish that. And certainly don't let go of it. And finally, don't think of what happened at the restaurant as a "low": think of it as the high point in your understanding of the power of your attraction for -- and (don't forget) your attractiveness TO -- a very gifted lover and a man who wants you as much as he can get you. Don't give up!

  • And dont give a shit what your kids think.

    No kid, or grown man, ever has issues of knowing his Mom was a cheating, cant be trusted, lying whore who oeft me and Dad to go get some more dick.

    No, of course not. Its cool.

    Dont sweat it lady.

  • Cuckold your husband. Research it and go for it. In the end your hubby will worship you. The feeling of a big cock cumming in my pussy while my husband watches is exhilarating. We used to be a normal average married couple. Now when he is good i will rub his little penis. He used to make me watch interracial porn, at first I hated it but then realized I want a big black man to put his ten plus inch tool in my pretty white pussy. The first time it happened he came home aand there I was getting the best sex of my life. My husband grew an instant little erection and tried to pretend he was upset. I watched my hubby the whole time. He masturbated four times. When he pulled out of me and cummed an INSANE amount of sperm on my pussy I told my hubby it was not his pussy anymore, he gave it to a black man. What a powerful thing to have another man come in and fuxk and take my pussy in front of my hubby. I love my hubby and he loves me.

  • At this point you're in control because you can decide to stop it, but if you keep going and your husband finds out then you'll really be out of control because it will probably be his decision more than yours. It's one thing to have a little fling every now and then, but this had gone well beyond that.

  • The control is only perceived. Yanic could show up at her door at any time to expose the affair, if she rejects him and he either wants revenge or a real, honest relationship. It sounds like Yanic is used to getting what he wants. From the point she cheated going forward, this was always a possibility. The worst part is lying to someone she made an oath to. Unless the oath had an escape clause like. "I will honor you until a hot guy with a big schlong comes along." She betrayed the covenant of marriage. In religious terms, it is grounds for divorce.

  • You're in heads over heels in lust and this is filling a void in your marriage. The lust will end, for you or for your lover, and then what? Are you willing to destroy your marriage, and your family, for a few minutes of over-the-top sex? If so, then why stop here - just become a slut and fuck every man that turns you on. You can have a lot more of it, if that's what you want.

  • That's what I do. Being a slut is great!

  • I LOVVEEE this confession, it's so hot. You deserve it baby, every1 knows tall thin guys are the biggggest. Milk him for what u can :p

  • This is why men objectify women. You have turned a man into life support for a penis. Do even care that the tall, thin man has a mind? I guess you could care less if he is complete douche as long as he is big? I would think being that guy would be a curse. he would never know if a girl just wants a body part or cares about him and his emotional and psychological needs.

  • Oh, boohoo. He's enjoying it too. You go girl!

  • Js stop it, u made a mistake, bt end it. Bcoz bliv me losing some1 u lv will always eat u up inside. Js 4gv yaslf and b a better wife and mom 2 ya son, we all mk mistakes. Bt ask yaslf is js big dick better than your son and husband. He just wnts yo pussy, nd u said he's hot. He is nt fucking only u, u js his sperm dish so wise up. Js sit your husband down and talk 2 him abt spicing your sex life. Think with your head lovie not your pussy...

  • Where did you learn your English skills?

  • In my younger years I serviced a few married women from work. Some offered me a relationship, to leave their husbands. Would do anything and had fallen in love with me. I soon broke things off, not wanting to end a marriage. Just let this pass and save your marriage. The dick is one thing, loosing a man who loves you is another.

  • Lose not loose. I can not believe you are an adult and you can not spell an easy word. Very sad.

  • You ARE out of control and that is what is helping to create the extraordinary and awesome desire you are feeling and that you feel free to express ... I wish I knew you, too.

  • This story has my cock hard.

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