I want to watch my girlfriend use the bathroom
I've been looking all over the internet for places to vent and discuss this issue I've been having. Let me preface what I confess by saying that I am deeply embarrassed by my fetish.
I am aroused when a girl pees or wets her pants. Similarly if she poops or poops her pants. Farts also arouse me, anything 'inappropriate' digestive sounds for that matter.
I really wish I didn't have this fetish because I feel people view it as the sort of thing a creepy 40 year old man with a mustache would be in to. I'm in my 20s, male, tall and handsome and overall a remarkably normal and well adjusted person. Despite it all I just can't help having this kink. When I try to ignore the arousal it can bring me I actually seem to become more sensitive to being aroused by it. Its quite frustrating.
I can pretty much identify in my childhood where the fetish came from but its a long story so I'll skip it. Suffice to say it has to do with feelings of shame and embarrassment.
I'm hetero and the fetish pretty much only goes for female toilet activities, but having said that graphic bathroom situations with men make me anxious when I'm in public company. When I was a kid that laxative scene in Dumb and Dumber made me very uneasy and I wasn't quite sure why.
The fetish becomes unbearably difficult to resist if the woman is desperate to go and risks having an accident. Whether its hopping up and down from needing to pee or clutching a noisy stomach that is craving a poop, either scenario instantly snatches up all of my focus and thoughts. It makes me feel ashamed just how much I can't resist.
I told my GF recently about the fetish and THANK THE GODS she does not judge me or think less of me for it. I feel relieved I can be open with her about it. She feels the fetish is fairly tame and harmless yet she is, ahem, less than thrilled at the thought of 'performing'. LOL. I love her, so I'd never ask to her to anything she is uncomfortable with. I'm just glad I can be honest and not have to hide this anymore. Its like a huge weight has been lifted from my shoulders.
The fetish also has a few related kinks that I should mention. I love when my GF knows that I need to go badly and I really, really love it if she plays with my abs while I'm having a bout of gas/poop desperation. It also gets me hot if she presses her ear to my stomach to listen to me while my guts rumble and churn. Basically what gets me off is the sheer embarrassment of the entire thing. The childhood trauma that probably caused this whole fetish involves being judged and mocked for needing to go, so knowing that someone, my GF no less, is listening intently when I'm at my most vulnerable, and that she isn't even remotely disgusted is a serious turn on for me and an emotional bond. Its catharsis for very old, traumatic fears from childhood.
I would also enjoy my GF watching me use the bathroom to poop, mostly for the same reasons above, that its a very embarrassing and vulnerable moment. Its like that exercise where people catch you when you fall blindly off a ledge. If I can trust my GF to watch me do that and still have her find me sexy and not think of me as gross its like the ultimate level of trust I can possibly have in a person. Understand, I have deep, deep feelings of shame tied to peeing/pooping so being able to share in that with someone I love is a truly liberating experience for me. I have yet to actually have her be in there with me though, mostly because I don't want to pressure her or gross her out. The last thing I want to be is selfish even if it is for personal growth.
Moving back though, I get aroused when girls need to pee or poop mostly because for the longest time girls seemed unrelatable to me. They always seemed clean, smelled nice, looked better than guys and they "didn't poop". I was filled with self loathing that I had to poop during childhood and I resented that girls apparently didn't. It wasn't until I grew up that I learned that girls did in fact poop, only that it was a guarded secret.
I like to watch girls poop/pee not because I feel as though women should be degraded or humiliated, although I admit the need to use the bathroom is embarrassing. Its mostly because to me it makes women more human and relatable on a deep level. I love women and have a deep respect for them, but I simply can't help my fetish. At times it makes me feel like a hypocrite getting off on seeing a woman do something kinda degrading because I consider myself something of a feminist in life despite being a guy.
Anyway, thats my confession.
QUESTION for girls out there: Have you ever had a desire to watch your boyfriend poop? Or even just had a curiosity about him using the bathroom? If you were listening to your BFs stomach noises and heard gas/rumbling would you be disgusted?
God, I just reread this whole thing after typing it. Despite the fact that its all true I feel like such a weirdo! At least I'm being honest, I guess!
I love being part of my gf toilet time. Often I lay in bed wanking when I hear her sweet nectar in the toilet, sometimes I’ll even jerk if she has a shit imagining screwing that tight ring. I love watersports and having her pee on me or my hands under her as she goes too. Would love a nice juicy fart as I eat out her ring which I adore doing. Not quite sure I’d want her to shit on me. But I have fucked her arse before and then a while later she has sat on my face and I’ve had her brown spunky arsehole trickled into my mouth as I ate her cunt out
Okay, dude. I wouldn't want to tell you that your "fetish" is sick or strange, and I have not examined or evaluated you, but as a trained psychologist with over 20 years of clinical practice, I might say that you are one fucked up individual. It might be wise to see a professional and have your mind probed to see if the hampster is still on the wheel.
Awww, you're such a sweetheart. (Well you seem like one) I don't want you to be embarrassed at all for your "fetish" (If you wanna call it that, to me, that has a negative connotation) I think you have nothing to be ashamed about and I'm glad that you can be open with your girl, I think A. It'll help you accept yourself and your feelings. B. It will help strengthen the bond between the two of you as well as the love you share despite her unwillingness to "perform" -Sorry, Charlie. But you know what, maybe as time progresses & yall get more comfortable with each other, you may just get lucky. And to answer your question, I do like to listens to a man's insides digesting and all the sounds he makes. Oh, and yall might find it weird, but although I'm petrified of it sometimes a girl tinkling turns me on. (Girls only though. I'm sorry, but dicks are too repulsive like HEY. HERE I AM. WHAT CAN I PISS ON? And coochies are like Heyy, wanna come inside where it's warm?) And when I have to go I get super kinky from the feeling of having to. Weird? Prolly. I think I'm straight. Maybe bi.. Oh well, anteewayss, good luck with everything, own who you are & God bless!! c:
-A little 16 year old woman
Omfg I cried of laughter when I read the first comment. No offense. It caught me by surprise, haha!
Anyways, if your girlfriend is okay with it, I say you should be okay with it. It'd be a whole different story if you wanted to cheat on her or something straight up wrong.
Instead, you just have a kink that is seen as gross to the public eye. Which, admit it, it IS gross. But hey, the more taboo something is, the more likely it'll become a closet-common fetish. It's funny how we get more and more curious about things, the less we're suppose to care about it.
It sucks that your girlfriend isn't into 'performing' for you (and I totally would be the same if I were her LOL), but you can always just fantasize about it during sex or whatever.
I have an embarrassing "taboo" turn-on that I'm still kind of in denial over, so I feel ya bro.
We're all sick fucktards in one way or another, haha.
OP here, thanks for the kind comment! I feel a bit less bad about myself after having read it, especially after the "fucktard" one. LOL. "We're all sick fucktards in one way or another", you're totally right. Good luck with your own taboo turn-on, hopefully you can find someone someday to share it with. Openness is incredibly liberating, even if you don't act the secret you confide in someone. I'm discovering that now after having come clean to my GF about this whole thing. And yes, I admit it, poop is gross. Of all the fetishes to wind up developing why did mine have to involve something gross? Why couldn't it have been like... a fetish for hats or something. Sigh!
You are a sick fucktard
What you doing here reading his post ? Oh i guess your doing research right lol
Guilty as charged. At least I'm aware of it and self-hating as a result!