Want to watch another female touch herself

Ok, so I had my first lesbian sexual experience with an adult female when I was a preteen, while attending a very, very fundamentalist Baptist "Christian" summer camp that my parents had me attend.
I did not tell on her because I completely enjoyed it and willing participated in the five times we were together after my initial experience with her. To me, it totally felt natural.
I came out after college but did not mention my childhood experience. I have not stepped into a church in decades.

Im a big black guy but you can watch me finger myself

I wasnt curious about other girls until more recently. My bf and I have this friend that we met after he and I were already together and shes gotten really close over the last couple years. The more comfortable we got the more me and her saw each other naked. I brought her up to my bf as fantasy dirty talk a few times and I started really wanting to experiment. I was nervous so I thought we would be less anxious if it was a 3 way situation with my bf since she hasnt been with another girl either. It was pretty crazy! We still do 3 ways occasionally, sometimes its just me and her, but she and I agree that it we love when theres dick involved so...