Quick Gay Sex with my Cousin In Law

I met my cousin’s fiancé when I was 7. I instantly had a crush on him.
I was asked to be the Ring Bearer at their wedding
Having him In The family was awesome.
He was so cool and handsome.
Years went by and at 12 I went thru puberty.
I became full on gay obsessed with him.
At family get together I tried to flirt with him:but he seemed oblivious
Then we had a family get together at my Aunts house..
Everyone was outside. I went inside to go to the bathroom
He followed inside
We went into the restroom:and he dropped his shorts and briefs
His dick was erect and hard. He said suck it
It wasn’t how I imagined it, but I got on my knees right there in the bathroom and sucked him off and swallowed his come. After Ward he picked me up, sat me on the sink and we made out. The entire encounter lasted about 10 minutes.
In the years that followed we had many quick encounters like that.
Sometimes at my house, or my Aunts house. Once we even had A quick encounter in his car. He was sent to store to get a bag of ice during a family picnic. I went with him.
We pulled over behind a building and had a quickie
It became our relationship…quick sex on the sly, most oral and kissing
Only had anal twice. He was long, not thick and penetrated fairly easily
My parents, my cousin, Aunt and Uncle never found out
Our last encounter happened about 4 years ago when I was 17