First time masturbating.

On two separate occasions I willingly engaged with two separate adults, one male, one female, during my preteen years. I was too young to get pregnant but old enough to enjoy it :)

As an adult I never thought of myself as having been a victim of molestation.

Each adult initiated everything. They each successfully got me aroused enough that I fully cooperated and willing participated in what I with each of them as well as keeping all of it a secret from my parents.

When I was a little girl, l heard about sex toys at sleepover from my friends and we did look them up on the Internet on our laptops.
I got very nosey one day, while my mom was next door, and looked around in her closet. Sure enough, in a shoe box, there they were. A fake penis and a long hot pink vibrator, plus some very hardcore porn magazines.
Omg, at first I was like totally Eeew, my mom does IT ?? I stood there with that a few seconds when the magazines caught my attention. I quickly flipped through one of them, they were in a foreign language, stopping only to look at the very graphic pictures.
Soon the pictures we're having it's effects on me and I began to get very aroused. I looked at the next magazine that had close ups. I started to realize, at eleven years old, of my own need to masturbate, but I was a little too afraid to get caught in mom's room.
I put everything back and quickly went to the bathroom. I sat on the toilet and masturbated, while I still had those images in my head and I orgasmed faster than ever. I sat there as this wave of shame washed over me. I flushed and pulled everything back up.
As I was going downstairs, my mom was coming in through the front door. I did my best to act "normal" as I struggled inside with the realization how close U got to getting caught.
I never dated use my mom's toys but there were a few times that I took the magazines to my room when she wasn't in the house and gave myself a DIY orgasm.

So doing this stuff is normal but I didn't always think that. I really thought that it was something unique to me and that I had actually discovered something.
I didn't do often, just sometimes. I think that must have been nine or ten years old when I would press my vagina against my pillow. I don't remember exactly how I first tried it but I do remember doing it because it felt so good. I would do it in the privacy of my own room at night. I would get this "funny" feeling that I did not know how to identify but it was a restlessness that was the precursor to my doing it. I'd usually quietly leave my bed and check the door to my room as well as listening for my parents.
If I felt it was safe, I'd quickly get bottomless. I'd get my pillow and place it on the floor, because my bed squeaked. I'd roll the pillow in half and sort of mount it like a horsie before lowering myself onto my elbows.
I'd move my hip rhythmically pressing myself against the pillow while being very aware of anyone possibly approaching my room.
Soon the pleasurable feeling would get most of my attention until I would get a wave of throbs on a particular spot on my vagina. I'd quickly get up and put on my pajama bottoms while catching my breath. I'd quietly get in bed and under the covers, often thinking, I got away with it. Sleep quickly followed
It wasn't until I was at a sleepover at my best friend's house when I was almost twelve that she showed me a porn site she found on her laptop while we hid under the cover that I realized that I was not the only one to do this thing called masturbation. My friend admitted using her fingers and I admitted using my pillow. We didn't do it that night because her mom occasionally would interrupt us but I wanted to.
As soon as I got home I pretended to need to use the bathroom and while I sat on the toilet I wiggled my clitoris with my finger tips until I orgasmed. It basically changed the trajectory of my sexual life LOL

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My first time it made a splat sound

I was like 10 playing with my little dick. I orgasmed but no juice.

I think I was 11-12 when I first started masturbating. I remember thinking there was something wrong with me and telling myself “this is the last time” Lmao. Then the first time I produced cum/semen was even more confusing

I snuck online to a chatroom on MSN when I was like almost thirteen while my mom had gone out shopping and took my little sister with her. ASL was the greeting and PMs were brand new. I received a link to a child porn website that had only pictures but no vids. I clicked through the images, which did load up a bit slow but when I found the right one, I waisted no time jerking off to it.
Literally weeks went by before I was alone in the house so that I would be able to go to that MSN chatroom again. As soon as I was in the chat I received a link but to a different website that has the same key and of porn pics and I found one, her legs were open and her vag was so smooth, l liked and jerked off.
After that was when I started noticing my little sister.