Strange Love

I became sexually awake very young, not molested or anything like that, while climbing a rope in school it illicited a feeling that overpowered me and I really liked it. We had a woods behind my house and all the kids would play back therea field to, fir sports which mostly everyone else did except for me. I wanted to play Doctor and Show Me things like that...
At the beginning there were 3 girls and another boy. We will call them 1,2,&3 for girls and "R" for boy.
In the meantime I had found my dads stash of porn, one book "Adult Sexual Hangups" in it contained chapters of Lesbianism Homosexuality Fretishism Incest, pretty much everything, and being a precocious kid, I could read way before I went to school some of the words I didn't know but they still aroused me and would look them up in a big dictionary in the library .
I began to try snd have sex with 12&3 at first, I couldn't get them to take off their pants completely and this was very frustrating plus it hurt, and the people in the book didn't look like they were in pain, far from it actually;
When 1 showed us her Kitty I was smitten and wanted to stick my pecker in her but she wouldn't let me... Only look at it... 2 finally got naked and I was able to penetrate her, making her bleed, it scared the snot out of us!!!
All the while "R" is watching us not spying on us, right there with us... And he liked it.
"3" was 2z little sister, really cute and I finally got her naked and punctured her too, hurting her. I didn't mean to do that.
R watched that too.
I started to figure out that I needed a grown Woman to be inside, surely it would not hurt one if those...
Around this time, I accidentally saw my Sister nude, she had hair and she had boobs like the ones in that book.
I was extremely attracted to her and would spy on her in the shower 😍 R had a Hot Momma too and she became another object of my young lust as well;
A couple of times him and I were back in the woods alone and he started talking about how big my dick was, and how it barely fit into the girls especially "2" this got me erect and I started to let him watch it grow gradually talking about his Mom, if he ever saw her nude( he did) what color her hair was, when she took showers etc.all the while letting him watch it grow...
Around this time I discovered my Sister's Panties 😍 and how they really got me hard, sniffing and wearing them too.
One day I put them on and was we were in the woods I started my Love play with him again, pulling my pants down and showing him what I was wearing told him they felt good(they do) 😀 and told him to feel them, of course my dick is up and out and have him start to touch my hip while he runs his hand on me. I turn to face him and get him to touch my penis, at first he pulled away but e got him to finally put his hand around me and finally started to have him jerk me off he had never actually seen what happened when I came, until then...
It took awhile for him to get the endurance to do it but ehen he did his eyes were huge as he watched me squirt a huge load... He said he liked to watch me squirt 😄 and I knew it was tine to let him see my Sister nude too. And jack me off.
So this became an every day thing, until one day , a bunch if the others were back in the woods, he asked me " do you want me to jack you again"?
And I about shit, only one kid kinda heard him, and then he started to try and sneak up on us, to catch us doing stuff. His parents worked during the day and said we should go in his house, there wouldn't be any bugs and we could be alone so we started doing it in his parents bed, of course, I had to lay on his Mom's side , while he continues to jack me off, with her Panties either sniffing or wearing them or both, sometimes having him wear them 🤣
During the day, we are in that bed, at night, we spy on my Sister in the shower 😍
I finally showed him the book, the Lesbians first, telling him they are like us then showing him the homos sucking each other. I told right after the episode in the woods , it was iur "secret" and nobody else should know about that.
I soon had him take me in his mouth. Even before, when I got him to touch me, I knew I would have him , he was mine and by using his warm tongue and mouth, I would be able to fuck his Mom and my Sister fantasizing it...
This went on for years. From the time he was 7 and I was 9 till he was 18. I even tried to reciprocate once, to show him how it felt, but to no avail...
I still think about it. There is more to it, if anyone wants to hear, let me know.. I've tried to say this on here before, but was unable to convey it. I hope i did better this time.