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"Late Bloomer" as they say ...
I'm an adult now, 23F.
Things are slightly better but my teenage years have been a mess (like most teens, I suppose.)
I'm what they call a "late bloomer".
I didn't have my periods until I was almost 17. I spent most if my high school being flat, petite, with a nagging squeaky voice and overly self concious about it.
Needless to say, I didn't have much success with boys, back then.
I was 19 when I met my first boyfriend.
He was nice with me about my appearence, but he kept pressing me to have sex. I didn't feel ready and I was still in a hormonal mess back then.
We split up for this reason.
Then I met my actual ex-boyfriend...
He was dreamy at first, caring, funny, clever and most if all... Patient !! (Highest quality a man can have <3)
I even felt ready to take the big leap with him. And I eventually did...
But soon, things started to become twisted.
He was asking me to roleplay and act like I was younger than him... Like... Much younger...
At first I felt like he was trying to make me feel sexy despite being still rather flat but his roleplay became even more précise and nasty.
At some point I was supposed to openly say that I was underaged and even cry or call him 'dadda' sometimes (not 'daddy'). I was telling myself it was just a kinky side of him. But when I imagined what it would end up into if we had a baby... I realizes how wrong it was...
When we broke up, it went surprisingly well and easy. He blocked me and all my contacts in two days and like vanished into thin air. Never saw him again in two years.
But now...
I've met this guy at work.
At first I thought he would never even notices me, but my colleagues stuck their n'oses into it and now we're... flirting ? I guess...?
But something holds me back.
What if he is a pervert ? What if he only likes me for my petite look ?
I realizes how wounded I am from my previous stories and I feel nervous to go on... I don't know what to believe, I don't know anything, anymore...
What should I do ?
My ex and I broke up because other people commented on our size difference constantly. Me 6' 8" 254lbs of construction solid her 4' 8" 81lbs of gymnastics sculpting. 25 years later we both regret letting others drive that wedge between us. Everyone thought I dated her because I was pedophile. She chased me. I admit it at first was bit odd but dam she was so pretty sculpted and craving being submissive. She just popped back up in my life still just as pretty. I am married happily yet my wife laughed after we ran into her and said all of you fit in her? Yes it all did her only issue being unable to get my cockheed fully in her throat. My wife and I have a been in a open relationship for years and she told me if she can watch i am more than welcome to invite her over.
It was the total opposite for me. My mom and all my aunts had big boobs and mine exploded on me starting at about eleven. I still did not have any pubic hair but my boobs were like HERE WE ARE !!! Oh and they sort of hurt and were tender so it was physically uncomfortable for me. The teasing I got was barbaric from both boys and girls. I felt like an outcast and had just like two friends that both struggled with their weight. I got too much attention in my mid teens. It was awful and very lonely for me. Needless to say that I developed a very strong habit of giving myself orgasms in my room every single night unless I was on my period. My early teens were like the worst time of my life.
Once I went to community college things started to fall into place and even those my "girls" still got to much attention it was somehow more welcomed by me.
I was socially awkward, also a late bloomer in my early teens and very self conscious. I made some very bad decisions in my attempts to get boys to like me both in person and on those cam to cam MSN chatrooms that my mom had no idea I would sneak to. I did not give myself enough time to let myself develope in a healthy manner. Slow down, be patient and you will catch up
Maybe, just maybe, that boy has just enough social wisdom to instinctively know that and as long as he treats you with dignity, hang in there and see how it goes. Give yourself time.
Do what makes you comfortable. Not every guy is going to be a creep like your last boyfriend. I question why you would ask for advice on a site like this, but I digress. Get to know this new guy better and see how he turns out. There is something about you that he likes and it might not just be because you’re small and petite.