My Porn Addiction

I look at it constantly and almost in any situation if I can get away with it. I'm an older guy with a family and I'm taking courses on the side... So if I have 5 hours to study, 3.5 of those hours will be me scanning my favorite sites, and the other 1.5 is me scrambling to get work done by the deadline. I just got a C on a test because I spent the entire time scanning YT for body paint videos with clear shots of p*ssy (I've taken a new interest to this), only opening the test in the final hour and frantically searching for answers.

I have gigs of saved stuff tucked away on flash drives, more gigs hidden on my laptop, and most of my phone storage is made up of hidden porn... I'll save content that someone ripped from an OF girl, or catch a YT video before it gets flagged, you name it. It's a guarantee that I'm jerking as soon as I get the house to myself, or even on the crapper if it feels that urgent.

Way back when, I'd message the booty shakers on YT and get them to send me nude videos and I even got to f**k a couple of them. These days I'm just a spectator, but watching/hoarding porn a carryover hobby that my wife doesn't know I still indulge in. Our sex life is wack but I could jerk all day and still want to f**k her if I wanted to because my sex drive is still high.

I honestly don't care to give it up but I'm starting to see how it's having a negative impact. I may buy an OF subscription here and there but I don't spend often so money's not the issue. I just need to be more disciplined because it affects school, work and time I could be doing something meaningful.

By Anonymous Oct 18

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