Ive been paying my neighbor to have sex with me

I'm a 53 year old man who is a recent widow. My wife, Janice, passed away almost a year ago from heart complications. It was a difficult and devastating time for me, as I loved my wife dearly and had no idea how to go about dealing with her passing. We had been married for twenty years, but were together for over thirty.

Sadly, I delved into internet porn to relieve the stress. Before her death, we had an active, satisfying sex life, even well into our age. Since her death, however, it's been hard for me to cope without that physical connection. Porn, and masturbation has filled the void, somewhat, and I have become quite dependent on it to get by.

A few months ago, me and my downstairs neighbor, a divorced woman named Susan, began spending more time together. I'd known her since she moved in about a year and a half ago, but I hadn't had much interaction with her. She's a nice woman and we've been friendly, but nothing more.

She's a younger woman in her late thirties, and is a recent divorced mother of two. Her kids, a boy and girl, are six and four, and are often busy with school and other activities, so Susan is left to her own devices quite often. She works from home, and is able to keep a flexible schedule that allows her to take care of her kids, however recently she had been borrowing money from me.

Since the passing of my wife, I've been living rather comfortably with her insurace money. In fact, I now have more money than I know what to do with, and have offered to help Susan with some of her financial issues.

Susan and I began talking more, and would sometimes watch movies together. On a few occasions, when the kids were at her ex-husbands, she'd invite me over and we'd have drinks. It wasn't until recently, when I asked her about the financial problems she was having, that I realized she needed real help. She was behind on her rent, and her car payments, and was in a bind.

Obviously needing to fill my own emotional void, I offered her some money, if she were willing to spend time with me.
I was expecting her to flat out reject me, and I was prepared to apologize for the offer, and tell her that I was simply joking.

Instead, she was receptive to the idea, and asked what would be involved.
I told her, that the main thing I was looking for, was sex. I explained that I wasn't looking for a relationship, or a girlfriend, but simply needed someone to meet my physical needs. She was actually okay with the arrangement, and we decided to give it a try.

So, I gave her the money, and a couple nights later, she came over and we had sex. It was wonderful, and we both got what we needed. After we were finished, she got up and got dressed and went home, leaving me satisfied.

Over the next few months, we'd continue the arrangement, and she'd come over once a week. The only condition I had, was that she had to leave right after, so as to keep things simple. I didn't want either of us getting attached, or confused, or hurt.

This was, is, a simple business
transaction, and it has been working well. But I cant deny how my heart skips a beat as she rides me, her perfect tits bouncing as she grinds her hips into me. The look in her eye as I hold her legs open. She has a deep, primal instinct in her that I honestly crave.