My Therapist Keeps Encouraging me, Talk it out, For you,Dr. Sincl

My mother was a Mennonite, To be a Waldorf school teacher, Generally speaking, Idealistic and oblivious. So when bad things happen to my sister and I.- We just had over at active imaginations Shouldn't say things like that.
I was 9 my sistet 5 Both of us Waldorf pupils, Were fairy tales in reality Are at odds.

Despite my mom's Abandoned religion and her Idealistic view of the world, mama liked men, sister and I had different fathers both of them rogues, cads and rascals. But mom got hefty support, I never did quite understand that. When I was nine my mom got a new boyfriend, he was very handsome, nice and Intelligence of the scale, Today you would call him erudite, he belinged to MENSA and had turned down a Rhodes Scholarship, ( for real!) Said, who wants to go luve wit bad food, rain, fog and Limies for a year?

I discussrd him in survivor groups in therapy and with law enforcement, both state and federal. Interesting analysis and feedback. He was definately very Machiavellian, sociopathic and nobody has said pedophile because he was among many srxual Addictions and predatory behavior. I know, I'm procrastinating The details and events.

So my mom trusted was Addicted and obsessed with this guy, so when he wanted to take me on a vacation, a Exploration trek, mom said, "Honey that will be fun, You see and learn a lot of things. Yes, I would. First Disneyland Knott's berry farm, Magic mountain Universal city studios tour, the bastard was paving the way to groom me as his baby girl sex toy. He bought me anything I wanted, fine Restaurants order anything you want honey. Then it was off to Tijuana, Mexico Down to a little hooch A few miles from Rosarita beach In Ensenada. Where my education would begin.

One large bed, I'd sleep with Mr. Black, he was Caucasian by the way. Second night he began cuddlung me, holding me real tight. Kissing my neck, getting me nude and massaging me, It didn't seem weird, not then. Benny began telling me erotic stories, This little girl did this And another little girl did this With grown man I liked it because it felt so good. Then he What nonchalantly say, So what do you think about those little girls and those men? I've been raised so naive, My answers would be, Well I don't know was it OK with their mothers? I guess it was okay if nobody got hurt and it felt good. That is what my therapist calls The epitome of naivetè.

Soon he was !icking my ass and vagina while he massaged me, rolling me on my back, playing with my vagina, licking it, putting his finger inside me. I won't lid, it felt good, very good and he said my mom would be happy I was keeping him compang away from other womem, I was a big girl. This 1 on for about a week and 1⁄2, Danny started rubbing his dick In my vagina. I didn't know then I know now It was very big Way over 8". He began putting KY lube on my gina and his dick, then I was jacking him off he called a happy massage. I knew it wasn't right but too Sheltered and naivè to know how sick and wrong it was.

He always ate me, both areas, sucked my tiny bumps for titties. During the days he'd take me shopping, he'd let me get whatever, I didn't know what to get, I had so much already. Then he took me to an X rated movie, full of nasty men, real creepy. But in Tijuana, Mexico old men could take young girls to smut flicks, there were ither young girls, sucking on men's penis. Mr Black saud, watch this, see her? That guy is making her vagina feek good, like I do yours. Then he instructed npme to open and take his dick in my mouth. No idea how. So he got a girl maybe 16 to give me lessons, giving her $50+ not sure. She was like a teacher, now do this, relax, lick the top, see? Soon as a rookie I was half way down his hand on my head. That's my big girl and then...yuck he climaxed in my mouth it was salty metal taste and he held my chin, swalliw it, ut's full of Protein. Then we went home and talked about the fun we had. He told md he was goung to put his dick inside me, like the movie soon, ask if I was scared or excited
Then the sneaky sonofabitch called my mom Telling her how much fun we were having How much stuff I was buying Good food. He put me on the phone and I acquiesce that it was all true. Then he said, Tell your mom how you're keeping me away from all those girls.. I said, yes mommy I am makung sure Mr. Black isn't looking at any pretty women. My mom sais, That's my big girl thus I thoyght that was To keep on keeping mister Black happy. You see what manipulation and mixed messages can do?

Two nights later I was goung to lose My hymen And my virginity at the tender age is 9. Mr Black got me loaded on pills and booze, I was high second time, really high. Mr Black kissed me like a grown up lits of tongue, ate my holes, pinched and sucked my titties and it fekt real goid I was high. Then he rubbed his very hard dick on.my vagina and began putting it inside me, kept saying, just the tip sweetie take it like a big girl.
Feels good, ugh? Here I was, In a cabana on the ocean in Mexico 9 years old About to be fucked by a man 27 years older than me. It was the same thing every night for almost 3 weeks, He already broken my hymen Pop to my cherry as he called it. Every night he got farther inside me, he went from pumping slow to hearing a smack on.my pelvis like a machine gun. Sometimes he would climax inside others on me or I'd have to open my mouth. It no longer was so painful, but it always left me sore, that never went away.

Then same thing with my rectum until he stretched me, as he called what he was doing. I'm stretching you.out for the husband you may get someday.

One day he took.me to the bus drpit.in San Diego put.me on a bus for home, Omaha, Nebraska, we never saw him again, the police were clueless. I wonder how many other girls like me?

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