Step father

I am now 31 years old, but something happened with my step father when I was 14. I have never told anyone this, not even my husband. Our family used to go up north for the summer to rent a cottage and do summer things like fishing and hiking etc. One year (when I was 14) my mom got a really bad stomch flu while we were there. My step dad had to sleep on the couch. He is a big guy and the couch really wasn't. So my mom asked if I would mind if he slept in my room and if I would sleep on the couch. I reluctantly said ok. Well the second night of sleeping on the couch, I was very uncomfortable, so I just got in bed with my stepdad. It was a double bed and I've never been very big, so I got under the covers with him and dozed off. It was the middle of the night when I woke up with him spooning me! I was pretty wierded out but I noticed that he had an erection, and it was pressed against my ass. I tried to move, and he started humping me! I didn't know what to do. I just layed there for a bit then he stopped. He rolled on his back. When he did he pulled all the covers off of both of us. His penis was sticking out the leg hole of his boxers. I was in shock. Never saw a real one before. And knowing what I do now about cocks, his was quite large. I was pulsing and bobbing with his pulse. I just layed there staring. Then it went soft. So I got comfortable and tried to fall asleep. I couldn't cause I got horny seeing his cock and I could see if if I just opened my eyes. He was still laying on the blankets. It started getting hard again. I had to touch myself, it was driving me crazy. I have never had the hots for him. Not that he was bad looking. Back then he was in great shape and he was attractive. But I never saw him like that. Well tonight he was a sexy piece of meat to me. I was masturbating and got a nasty idea and put his hand on my pussy and moved it around like he was doing it for me. I came hard. Then I got dirty. I put my wet fingers under his nose. His cock jumped as he inhaled deeply. I was stuck about what to do next. He rolled back on his side. I layed on my side and slid up against him like before. I grabbed his cock (which was so incredible to me at the time) and put it between my legs and closed my legs on it. It was resting right on my wet pussy. He just layed there so I started rocking back and forth. He must have got the hint cause he started humping again. Only this time he was rubbing his cock along my pussy and was rubbing my clit.I looked down and I could see his cock sliding in and out from between my legs. I was in heaven. I came again! The he started breathing heavy and moaning. I was hoping my mom didn't hear. Then he came! I saw it shooting out of his cock and landind on the bed infront of me. Then he woke up. Confussed and wondering what happened. I was scared so I pretended to be asleep. He then said "oh shit! " And some other stuff under his breathe. After all he woke up spooning his step daughter, with his cock between my legs, and come all over us. He went to the washroom and grabbed a clothe. He was wiping the bed in front of me muttering. I pretended to be sleeping. The next morning he took the sheets off the bed and took them to the laundry mat. I know he never told my mom. She would have killed him. It never happened again, but over the years I thought about it a lot and wanted to do it again, but never had that opportunity. Kind of glad I didn't, because as I got older, I wouldn't have been satisfied unless I got that large cock inside of me. That would be a whole other can of worms! I hope I get some feed back here. I know some people will be harsh, but I want to know if someone has ever had a similar experience. Man or woman. Or am I the only wierd chick in the world. Lol. Thanks for reading