Want more than I am brave enough to ask for
I'm in a relationship and I've brushed the topic before. It didn't go over well so I dropped it. HOWEVER the thought lives strong in my mind. I DESPERATELY want my gf to pass on my face and smack me. I love the thought of her denying me and giving to someone else. I like the aspect of being her good man at home that she abuses and she gouges out and has all the fun she wants with whoever she wants. When I brushed the topic I only mentioned inviting a third. Did not fly well. Sad. I don't think the depth of this depravity would go over at all
It took a long time for my wife to finally fuck someone else then she became a different woman all together. She would go out and find a guy and call me up and tell me that she found a real man that she was going to fuck in our bed I had to stand in the corner of the room and watch her getting fucked by strange men and I would jack off and eat my own cum as they watched me and laugh at me. I got what I asked for and became a cuckold for her.
It doesn't sound like it. My wife is the same. I use escorts for those kind of things.