My Therapist and I broke the golden rule
During my break up and divorce, I began seeing my therapist for weekly sessions. It was a way to get things off my mind while keeping my sanity. I know her through a friend which was strange at first but I've found I like it a lot because we know a lot of the same people so, as I am talking about things or people bothering me, she as a great reference point.
Since my divorce has been final, I have begun talking to her about getting back in the dating scene, my fears, etc. We've gotten very close over the past couple months and I really feel comfortable with her. At our last visit, this past Friday, she came over and sat on the couch with me and we spoke like friends.
as we spoke, she asked me what I'm looking for in my next girlfriend or date. Unconsciously, I described her perfectly. when I realized it, I looked at her and she was staring at me. I went to say something and when I did, she leaned in and we kissed. Passionately. We made out for a couple minutes on the couch before we separated from one another. She touched her lips, looked back at me, and we started kissing again.
I pulled her over to my lap and she straddled me as I unbuttoned her shirt and began fondling her. I was genuinely excited that this was happening. I had her shirt and bra off and she slid down to the floor between my legs when it ended. We were in such a sexual haze and then there was a knock on the door. We both briefly panicked before she responded. It was her assistant telling her that she had a phone call she had to take. She said she'd be right out. we were both sort of embarrassed by our behavior as we got around.
I left without saying anything else to her. I am writing this today because she called me today and told me she has to discharge me as a client. She said she can't risk having that happen again. I told her I understood but am definitely sad about it.
Transference and countertransference is a real thing. I saw a therapist a few years ago, and just with the intimacy of the conversations, I started falling in love with her. I wanted to fuck her so badly. She picked up on it, though, and had me work with someone else. Bummer.
You can still go for it unless she is taken.