Husband has no idea
I'm pretty a straight-laced, professional woman. I'm 40, have been very happily married for 14 years, two kids, have a house with the white picket fence and everything. I'm a supervisor and make good money.
That being said, I have a bit of a porn habit, with a preference for watching gangbangs. I'm not even sure why I dig them, as I would never ever do one in real life (maybe that is the appeal, I don't know). I just love seeing a ton of maleness enjoying a woman, with all the jizz and everything.
My husband is pretty vanilla and conservative, and has no idea that I watch gangbang vids. He would shit if he knew. I even have a couple of friends at the office with whom I watch gangbang vids during lunch break. We don't do anything but watch and discuss what we like or don't like--kind of a film study, really. It's just fun.
You have a son?
OK here's the thing about this you don't want to do it but you enjoy watching it but truth be told you need to you too a different city and meet up with some total strangers and fulfill your desires and fantasies because life is too short and one day when you are old you are going to wish you had done it once. Strange town fake name guy's you never met before and you can do it all without anyone else knowing what you have done. If you decide to do it contact me tommcam at gee male dot com and I will be able to bring my friends along so you don't have to look for the guys. Now go for it sweetie
I married a Mormon guy, so I get this. I'm totally conservative sexually in real life, but I do like watching gangbang and orgy vids. It feels good on the brain. My hubby doesn't have a clue.
My husband is beyond vanilla. I have a porn fetish, a masturbation fetish and a cheating fetish. Life is good.
My wife has the same porn fetish as you. We bring the iPad to bed with us, pull up some vids and watch together. She'll hold the iPad while I work her pussy with my fingers or a small jelly vibe we've got, once she's good and hot I'll mount her and we'll fuck until she cums a few times, then it's onto her hands and knees for some doggy style and I usually finish by cumming on her face. This is 2-3x/week now for the past 4+ years. Works for us.
Just have a gang bang and get it out of your system.
Sounds like you need a gang bang and covered in cum with a bruised pussy and ass.