I'm pain training myself

I am a subbmissive male. Back when I first discovered masochism, I really enjoyed the idea of being humiliated and tortured by my master.
But when it came to the actual feeling, I was a total wimp. I couldn't bear the pain of even small cuts from a knife, but still the idea that I was being hurt was something I loved.

I saw my weakness to pain as a roadblock, it was keeping me from experiencing my greatest fantasies, and from serving any future masters. How can I satisfy them if I can't keep up with the pain? I was worried that I would be a failure of a slave, unable to fulfil my masters desires because I would be pussing out. And, since I still loved the idea of being a slave, I wouldn't get to enjoy being a slave if I didn't fix this. So I began pain training myself. I started small, hitting myself and wimpy things to get me started. I started 2 months ago, and now I'm currently using pins to stab myself in various places, and I will bite the inside of my cheek until it bleeds periodically, a few times a day, just to name a few of my excersizes. Soon I hope to be able to cut myself with a razor without hesitation or flinching, and then I want to be able to use a serrated knife to do the same.

And it's been successful! I enjoy mild to high moderate pain, an I can bear high amounts of pain now(I broke my leg during this, completely separate incident. I was able to walk a mile home without help on it.) I'm really proud of my progress so far, and soon I hope to be able to do anything for my future masters.

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