Something Inside
I am sitting here watching Logo (lesbian and gay network). And honestly I am starting to think about me and my sexuality again. I want to talk to someone. But I have no idea how or who. I am in love with my soul mate. But I know that I am attracted to women. (I am a woman) I have been out and bisexual for years. I am trying to decide whether I need to find out why this keeps popping up in my mind. I also wonder if I was not born the right sex. Because my attraction is bisexual no matter what. But I feel like a bisexual man not woman. And fuck all I know this does not make sense. And my soul mate tries so hard to be excepting. But he is 12 years older than me. And married for 15 years before me. And honestly he has had 3 sexual partners (ME INCLUDED) And I have had 23 that I can remember. I have never been uncomfortable with that. But I do realize that I have been much more about sex with men then women. I loved having sex with women but I also really focused on the relationship and was very choosy. I do not have alot of female friends because honestly alot annoy me. But...shit I make no sense....Please help.
Doctor here,
Firstly be assured that feelings like these are quite common; you are not alone. You may benefit from speaking to a councillor or therapist, or maybe some sort of support group. Know also that human sexuality is a complicated and multifactorial thing, and there is no place for shame and judgement for having feelings that you did not necessarily choose.
I would encourage you to talk to someone, including your husband if you feel he would be receptive. Otherwise, do what you feel you must in order to preserve your mental health. Enjoy life!
You're a doctor and you spell counselor wrong? I call bull!
Have you ever seen a doctor write?