My 10 year old fetish

When I was 13, like any other boy growing up in High School, I started to wank, but not to conventional porn. For the past 10 years I have had a very severe foot and gunge/messy fetish. I would wank off to girls' feet, if someone in my year group was throwing a party, I would wait for girls to post pictures in their high heels with their toes showing. I would also keep a collection, I did for about 6 years on my old computer. This collection included 500+ pictures of girls' feet plus videos of girls getting gunged/pied in the face. These videos were either off YouTube, p**n websites or even some fetish websites like umd.net. There is one website I used primarily called 'The Pie Zone'. I would buy videos because they were the best ones, I have to admit I've probably spent upwards of $1000 in videos over the last 6 years. In an attempt to recreate the feeling, anytime my parents were out the house, I used to wank off in the bath and pour custard over me to recreate the feeling, the overwhelming sensation I felt was like nothing I'd ever felt, I'd argue the first time I did, it felt nicer than the first time I had sex. Since I've had this fetish, I have had 3 girlfriends, all of which I tried to encourage to wear heels in the hope of them being open toe and that I had another thing to wank over. I've come to the point, as I nearly reach my mid twenties, to leave this horrible and sick side of me in the past and I'm making a start since we only have less than 2 months left of the year. One way of doing this was admitting anonymously on this website, because I haven't spoken a word of this to anyone, I am the only person who knows this, well I was. I know this fetish doesn't define me, but for years I've secretly thought it has, which in turn has lead me down a route of anxiety and stress just keeping this a secret. I would be overly concerned about people going on my phone just in case I'd left a tab open or forgot to cover my tracks. I have also deleted that collection off my computer now, and I am going to block all the fetish websites off my wifi so it's a lot harder to access them. It's a start and I know I've got a way to go, but I hope this offers some relief.

By Anonymous Nov 7

Fetish CONFESSION

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