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Starting my 2nd semester with her with an uncertain future
We are 2nd semester freshman at a large state university, we roomed the first semester and agreed to room the 2nd semester.
Last semester, on a cold rainy day, she met me at the library and walked me back to our dorm in the rain, the whole way she held me tight against her under her small umbrella. She kissed me five times, I counted, and held me real tight.
When we got back to the dorm she helped me undress and take off all of my wet clothes until I was standing completely naked in front of her, she wrapped me in her heavy towel and got undressed herself. She toweled my hair, and dried me head to foot before drying herself with the same towel.
We were both naked, and she opened the bed and put me in and she got in and covered us up to get warm. During the time she was drying me with the towel she kissed me another dozen times, on the head, the forehead, the cheeks, the nose, and two peks on the lips.
In bed she wrapped me up in her arms telling me she didn't want me to catch a cold, we were totally naked, I could feel her naked body against me, when she turned me around to kiss me on the mouth I gave in completely. She asked me if I liked it and I said yes, and she started to feel me up, when she got between my legs, I let her play with me and put her fingers in me.
We ended up in a 69, more her than me, but I tried to reciprocate I just wasn't any good at it. After she gave me an orgasm, we laid in bed together until nightfall, when we got up and dressed and went down to dinner in the cafeteria.
This was my first time, she was not a virgin, she had a boyfriend in high school but it was her first time with a girl. We became inseparable the rest of the semester and slept together. The entire Christmas break she is the only thing on my mind, we talk every day and I can't wait to see her.
The problem is that during Christmas break she saw her boyfriend and she had sex with him, she said she couldn't deny him. She hurt my feelings, I was ready to confess my love to her on Christmas but I held back. We are going to room again and I don't know what to expect. I have no doubt that I am a lesbian, I have known for a long time about my feelings and have had several very deep crushes, but this is my first intimate experience.
I am ready to commit to her, but I don't know if she has real feelings for me or if it was a college thing. Feelings wise, if she had told me that she had messed around with another girl I would have been hurt, but the fact that I was a boy and he had sex with her really hurts, that she would let him insert his penis in her, that really bothers me.
I don't know if I am over reacting, I am really crushed on her and I just can't stop thinking about how she let him have sex with her, it really bothers me.
Women are so easy to control.
Like you I am a lesbian, I just find men a complete turn off. Just look at the post that starts "Just another 2 pussy lickers..." to see what I mean - brainless to say the least. Bi women are very different from 100% lezz and I suspect that your friend is bi and you are 100% lezz. Just be careful who you give your heart too, I think this time you got carried away when you found out you are a lebian. I did too but it works itself out. Good luck darling.
Just another 2 pussy lickers having a bit of fun but cant bet a good hard cock up your tight little hole .
Wow what a sensitive guy you are. Shame you ain't got anything between the ears because you might be able to understand the posts.
You're not overreacting, I'd be really upset too regardless if I was involved in a sexual or pure love relationship. I know the effect an ex has on someone, but if she's having sex with you, she should have had you first on her mind to think about your feelings. Best of luck to you. Let us know how it goes.