I tried humping my cat when i was 10.

I wasn't sure if it would be okay to post this onto the other website, so I'm posting it on here.
this has been eating at me for six years.
before anyone comments, i regret this. i would never do this now, and i will never try doing it again. i find zoophilia disgusting and i am very much not one. i was just misguided and stupid.

ive been very hypersexual since i was 10. (also im female, just to clarify)
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one day i was really h*rny, and was doing stuff in the living room. (i was home alone for like an hour or so)
this was one of the first times that shane dawson was under fire for all the cat stuff. (hes been under fire like 3 times for it, but this was the first time i ever knew of it.)

i was also a furry at the time. i had heard stuff about furries doing stuff with animals (obviously not all of them do, and the ones that are like that are not accepted by the community at all.)
i guess hearing all of that made me feel like i had to make a choice. that i had to decide if i wanted to do stuff with animals. honestly i dont know why i came to that decision. i was stupidly h*rny and a dumb kid.
i thought i could try. so i got over my cat..and she got up and walked away.
immediately i felt terrible. i knew i shouldnt have done it, but i tried doing it anyway.

nothing happened. nothing has happened since. i love my cat so much and i feel so terrible and guilty that i ever tried doing that with her. genuinely, im not a zoophile. i never have been. i was just a fucking idiot who thought i had to try it for whatever reason? i still dont know.
anyway, if you read all of this, thank you for hearing me out. i just wanted this off my chest.
if you comment, please, please dont berate me for what i did. its been six years and ive beat myself up about it everyday since. i feel like i can never be normal again. i feel so guilty and disgusting for ever thinking about it. i wish i hadnt tried doing it. i wish i went with my parents to target that day. i wish i wasnt so stupid. im sorry. i want to make it up to the world.

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