I am A racist and had sex with a black lady

I grew up being told that black people were all bad people and to this day I still feel the same way. I understand this is not a good thing and it is hard to change. It seems to bother other people than it does me.
A few nights ago I was looking on a escort web site and saw a picture of a very attractive black woman she was wearing black thigh high stockings and a tiny thong. I wanted this woman! I called the number and she answered and we set up a time for me to come to her Hotel. I was scared to death not knowing if i was going to get robbed or beat up.
She answered the door and as soon as I cam in we agreed to a price for her service. she had me undress and lay down. she took my soft cock into her mouth and got me hard in no time. this was the best head job I ever had in my life. I told her to swing around so I could reach her pussy. which she did and I started to rub her ass and played with the thong she was wearing. that ass was so soft. then I slide my hand down further and felt a strange bulge. I was fucking horrified! she had a very large cock. I grabbed ahold of it and started to stroke it before long it was throbbing in my hand. I told him to stop sucking me and lay down. I had him put on a rubber and then I sucked his cock which was the first time I have ever done that. and it will be the last. his cock was so fucking thick and long I could not fit much in my mouth. He handed me some lube and got doggy style and I fucked him nice and slow while I jerked his cock we ended up coming at the same time. this dude shot so much cum all over the bed. it was a fucking mess! I washed up and got the fuck out of there.