I (niece) am lusting for my aunt's husband..

There were times where i would completely forget about my aunt's husband (Tom 'fake') or chose not to remember. i would be all normal and fine for months, some years.... porn or 'in the mood'-wise. i would just be a normal girl.

there are times where i would suddenly be hit with such a dirty and repulsive, sometimes uncontrollable lustrous feeling stirring up inside me. i would suddenly think about Tom- i could've just thought about someone else...but for some unknown fuckery- i chose him.

i still question why him.

i question that maybe it's because i've shared some histories and memories with him during my childhood? is it because i've been around him a lot during that time? is it because he and the family had warmth that my child self needed while living with abusive and neglectful parents? is it because after being molested by my brother and cousin- i wanted someone so gentle and sweet (him) to care for me too?
i don't know.

but here i am- i chose him.

those constant daydreams and thoughts about him, would gradually make me do things that i still feel deeply disgusted by.

this isn't the first time i've been lusting for Tom. i'm sure i've had previous 'episodes' years ago- but from what i could recall, those previous episodes weren't 'too much'. it was just me, just innocently thinking about him.
and then more years goes by- i would gradually become less innocent and think innocently. from what i have gathered- the last time i've had the 'episode' was not long ago. it was maybe a month or two ago.
and that last time- i did something that personally makes me feel like i've crossed the line.

...i masturbated.
and i thought about him.
i wanted him.
i wanted him to do that (porn video), to me.
i wanted him to moan and groan, to me.
i wanted him to speed up the rhythm, holding me tighter, breathing heavier
in my ear, while doing me harder and finally feel him exploding inside me.

...i feel deeply disturbed and confused just writing this. but of course... this fucking lustrous stupid feeling, makes me become h*rny from even seeing this.

that moment- where i finally masturbated while fantasizing about him, was where it became...somewhat a little more, intense.

i have done some stuff.
i check his facebook from time to time.
i check my aunt's photos, that included him.
i almost messaged him but stopped myself.
embarrassingly, i got off from watching this video of him- where he groaned and moaned. i got off from what people would say, such an innocent video. it was just a video of an aftermath of him eating a pepper...
i imagined him on top of me, on a bed, at night- hearing nothing but those groans and moans.

....fucking surprising how we, humans can be so dirty and awful.

i'm officially a pervert and a stalker, i guess.
let's be real.

i acknowledge this.
i feel a bit of intimidation and fear, but i need to face this reality and really...get some help.

i feel like i have two sides now.
because, i DEEPLY. DON'T- want to remain like this.
i just want to be normal.......that's all i want.
but this side of me, doesn't want to change. it doesn't want to be normal. it wants what it needs. basically.

....fuck

my mental health.....is deteriorating.

this my confession.
i'm of age now.
i'm 21 years old.
i want to save myself for marriage. however, something is in the way. obviously.
i had one boyfriend, in 2012. but it wasn't for real. it was just an online thing. a stupid one.
yeah. i've been alone for this long.
i will be 22 in may.

anyways... now that i feel less tense thanks to letting this off my chest-
i still have some normality left inside me.
i still have some hope.

this is all.

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  • Lust away at your will my dear!! You definetly are normal having those thoughts!! The brain is our biggest sex organ!! So masturbate if you must but I hope you get what you want!! Enjoy!!!

  • Se thats why your a stupid kid lady balls. You can't tell the difference between when a man writes stories or a female writes them. This is very clearly written by a sick male.

  • Hey dude, yer fake ass story should start by, "When I was a young boy..."

  • Yeah! You like young boys, don't you?? Lol

  • Shut the fuck up pedo!

  • You are the pedo and everyone knows it! Especially your family! Lol

  • You are the stupid kid in your family! The fucking class clown who thinks everything is funny. nlol

  • Nlol??

  • Not laughing out loud ass hole

  • Nlol?

  • NLOL means "Not Laughing Out Loud". NLOL is the opposite of LOL. In other words, NLOL is used to show that you're not laughing.
    Can you understand that you dumb fucking kid. If not use all your mental powers to look it up ass wipe Try Urban dictionary idiot!

  • Nlol

  • It is so sad you all think that is a real woman!! Really you think women come here and talk that way?
    Just some sick guy wearing panties wishing he was a girl all alone writing this fake crap! Just so he can jerk off to your replies! Speaking of your replies,
    Do you really want to marry someone you don't even know. I know you will fuck anything with a heartbeat or not! But how can you profess your love to a fake story with a snowballs chance in hell that it is a girl!
    Even if it is would you still do her if she weighed 675 pounds and had bed sores all over her with bed bugs crawling out of them?
    Yes I know you all will so don't answer that one! On the plus side she got her flea collars so the flea's are gone! Enjoy!!!

  • Hey dood, yer fake ass story should start by, "When I was a young boy..."

  • First mental issue Is pretending you are a girl when you are a guy, a male, a ladyboy, a chick with a dick or a tranny that cut up his dick! You where born with a dick even if it was a micro dick and that makes you male sick fuck.

    Second mental issue is your sick fascination with incest stories dude!

  • If you like incest post" You are a loser" below!

  • Quit your bitchin' or get a real life. Do something constructive here like making a post yourself. Make an exciting one like an afternoon fishing with your dad, or the first time you saw a deer while camping.

  • You are a loser

  • If you like incest!

  • Don't mock it until you've tried it!

  • Fuck off lady balls you sick fucking punk assed kid.

  • So well educated 🙄

  • A lot more then you sick fuck.

  • We can tell. 😂😂😂

  • First mental issue Is pretending you are a girl when you are a guy. Second mental issue is your sick fascination with incest stories dude.

  • Broken record 🙄

  • There are girls here dipshit!!!

  • Only ones with a dick hanging between their legs.

  • Two people write these fake incest stories thats it.

  • Your wrong about that also. You are one sorry ass dumb fuck!!!

  • No not wrong ass hole! Two main ass holes write this crap. Sometimes someone else comes along and writes one but rare dick for.

  • I will explain it so a moron like you can get it.

    They are trending because of the replies idiot!

    Not because of the views jack ass.

    Now do you understand it fuck head!

    You should be thankful that we are trolling your fake assed incest stories if you like the fact that they are trending.

    See how putting spaces in between your fake assed incest stories make them look longer Dip shit.

    Now if you can't understand it now! You are dumber than dog shit ass wipe!

  • How long did it take to write that all fake incest crappy stories?

  • Fake cake incest propaganda! You haven't fucked anything but Mary Palm ( Rosy or sister Mary what ever you like dumb fuck) and her five children.

  • Get a shrink and a rope. Maybe the shrink will talk you out of using the rope. We hope the shrink helps tighten the noose around your neck.

  • Leviticus 18:6-18
    
“None of you shall approach any one of his close relatives to uncover nakedness. I am the Lord. You shall not uncover the nakedness of your father, which is the nakedness of your mother; she is your mother, you shall not uncover her nakedness. You shall not uncover the nakedness of your father's wife; it is your father's nakedness. You shall not uncover the nakedness of your sister, your father's daughter or your mother's daughter, whether brought up in the family or in another home. You shall not uncover the nakedness of your son's daughter or of your daughter's daughter, for their nakedness is your own nakedness. ...

  • Fuck you and your fake incest propaganda ass hole.

  • Understanding and treating survivors of incest
    By David M. Lawson
    March 6, 2018

    Adults with histories of being abused as children present unique challenges for counselors. For instance, these clients often struggle with establishing and maintaining a therapeutic alliance. They may rapidly shift their notion of the counselor from very favorable to very unfavorable in line with concomitant shifts in their emotional states. Furthermore, they may anxiously expect the counselor to abandon them and thus increase pressure on the counselor to prove otherwise. Ironically, attempts at reassurance by the counselor may actually serve to validate these clients’ fears of abandonment.
    The motivating factor for many of these clients is mistrust of people in general — and often for good reason. This article explores the psychological and interpersonal aspect of child sexual abuse by a parent and its treatment, with a particular focus on its relationship to betrayal trauma, dissociation and complex trauma.
    Incest and its effects
    Child abuse of any kind by a parent is a particularly negative experience that often affects survivors to varying degrees throughout their lives. However, child sexual abuse committed by a parent or other relative — that is, incest — is associated with particularly severe psychological symptoms and physical injuries for many survivors. For example, survivors of father-daughter incest are more likely to report feeling depressed, damaged and psychologically injured than are survivors of other types of child abuse. They are also more likely to report being estranged from one or both parents and having been shamed by others when they tried to share their experience. Additional symptoms include low self-esteem, self-loathing, somatization, low self-efficacy, pervasive interpersonal difficulties and feelings of contamination, worthlessness, shame and helplessness.

  • One particularly damaging result of incest is trauma bonding, in which survivors incorporate the aberrant views of their abusers about the incestuous relationship. As a result, victims frequently associate the abuse with a distorted form of caring and affection that later negatively influences their choice of romantic relationships. This can often lead to entering a series of abusive relationships.
    According to Christine Courtois (Healing the Incest Wound: Adult Survivors in Therapy) and Richard Kluft (“Ramifications of incest” in Psychiatric Times), greater symptom severity for incest survivors is associated with:
    * Longer duration of abuse
    * Frequent abuse episodes
    * Penetration
    * High degree of force, coercion and intimidation
    * Transgenerational incest
    * A male perpetrator
    * Closeness of the relationship
    * Passive or willing participation
    * Having an erotic response
    * Self-blame and shame
    * Observed or reported incest that continues
    * Parental blame and negative judgment
    * Failed institutional responses: shaming, blaming, ineffectual effort
    * Early childhood onset

  • Early childhood onset
    Incest that begins at a young age and continues for protracted periods — the average length of incest abuse is four years — often results in avoidance-based coping skills (for example, avoidance of relationships and various dissociative phenomena). These trauma-forged coping skills form the foundation for present and future interpersonal interactions and often become first-line responses to all or most levels of distress-producing circumstances.
    More than any other type of child abuse, incest is associated with secrecy, betrayal, powerlessness, guilt, conflicted loyalty, fear of reprisal and self-blame/shame. It is of little surprise then that only 30 percent of incest cases are reported by survivors. The most reliable research suggests that 1 in 20 families with a female child have histories of father-daughter child sexual abuse, whereas 1 in 7 blended families with a female child have experienced stepfather-stepdaughter child sexual abuse (see the revised edition of The Secret Trauma: Incest in the Lives of Girls and Women by Diana E. H. Russell, published in 1999).
    In 1986, David Finkelhor, known for his work on child sexual abuse, indicated that among males who reported being sexually abused as children, 3 percent reported mother-son incest. However, most incest-related research has focused on father-daughter or stepfather-stepdaughter incest, which is the focus of this article.

  • Subsequent studies of incest survivors indicated that being eroticized early in life disrupted these individuals’ adult sexuality. In comparison with nonincest controls, survivors experienced sexual intercourse earlier, had more sex partners, were more likely to have casual sex with those outside of their primary relationships and were more likely to engage in sex for money. Thus, survivors of incest are at an increased risk for revictimization, often without a conscious realization that they are being abused. This issue often creates confusion for survivors because the line between involuntary and voluntary participation in sexual behavior is blurred.
    An article by Sandra Stroebel and colleagues, published in 2013 in Sexual Abuse: A Journal of Research and Treatment, indicates that risk factors for father-daughter incest include the following:
    * Exposure to parent verbal or physical violence
    * Families that accept father-daughter nudity
    * Families in which the mother never kisses or hugs her daughter (overt maternal affection was identified as a protective factor against father-daughter incest)
    * Families with an adult male other than the biological father in the home (i.e., a stepfather or substitute father figure)

  • Finally, some qualitative research notes that in limited cases, mothers with histories of being sexually abused as a child wittingly or unwittingly contribute to the causal chain of events leading to father-daughter incest. Furthermore, in cases in which a mother chooses the abuser over her daughter, the abandonment by the mother may have a greater negative impact on her daughter than did the abuse itself. This rejection not only reinforces the victim’s sense of worthlessness and shame but also suggests to her that she somehow “deserved” the abuse. As a result, revictimization often becomes the rule rather than the exception, a self-fulfilling prophecy that validates the victim’s sense of core unworthiness.

  • Beyond the physical and psychological harm caused by father-daughter incest, Courtois notes that the resulting family dynamics are characterized by:
    * Parent conflict
    * Contradicting messages
    * Triangulation (for example, parents aligned against the child or perpetrator parent-child alignment against the other parent)
    * Improper parent-child alliances within an atmosphere of denial and secrecy
    Furthermore, victims are less likely to receive support and protection due to family denial and loyalty than if the abuser were outside the family or a stranger. Together, these circumstances often create for survivors a distorted sense of self and distorted relationships with self and others. If the incest begins at an early age, survivors often develop an inherent sense of mistrust and danger that pervades and mediates their perceptions of relationships and the world as a whole.

    #THE REAL SIDE OF INCEST

  • No you don’t.

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