Man in Lingerie is a Cum Slut?
I am a Man, and I enjoy dressing in Women's lingerie (heels, stockings, garter belt, bra and panties, short nighties) when I get dressed up in these clothes, it makes me feel so excited and I want to be seen and used by other Men. I act submissive, and want to have their cocks in my mouth and suck them until they cum. I am eager to swallow it as well and enjoy the taste. Once it is all over, and I get undressed from the Lingerie I feel guilty and dirty. These dirty feeling last until a day or two later, and I start thinking about doing it all over again. A few of the Men have made me do things that they order or request, like lick and suck their balls, or lick their assholes and stick my tongue in as deep as I can. One of them mounted me and put his cock inside of me and fucked me (he wore a condom thankfully) hard and deep. He came while inside of me and I could feel the pumping of his muscles shooting his cum into the condom while he was inside of me, and I liked it. When he was done and getting soft again, he pulled out and removed the condom and ordered me to open my mouth and drink the cum as he squeezed it out of the condom, and I did and swallowed it all.
I am married and older (late 50's) and I have Diabetes Type 2 which has forced my cock to shrink and stop getting hard. What was once a solid 6.5" is now barely 1.5" and hard to even find it, as it turtles inside of me, so just my bigger balls are showing. I am able to play with it and make it semi hard, not enough to fuck or penetrate at all, but I am able to make it cum. With no cock showing, my Wife has agreed that I should be wearing panties as I am more like a woman than a man, with no visible cock. The Diabetes pills and other Meds have made my breasts grow as well, and I now fill a 44 C bra pretty well, and again my wife has said with the breasts that I have, I should be wearing a Bra full time. So sex at home has come down to wearing Bra and Panties and masturbating myself in front of her until I cum in the panties. On a few occasions she allows me to cum on her body, but if I do, I am required to lick it off and swallow my own cum. She just laughs and tells me I am a slut.
I do not think about being a woman at all, I do not think about a sex change or anything. However, when I am wearing Lingerie, my brain changes and I think of Men and their cocks, and I want to stroke a cock and suck it until it cums in my mouth. At that moment I enjoy being a Slut in Lingerie and making a Man cum in my mouth. I enjoy being used for another Man's pleasure and for nothing else but helping him achieve orgasm and make him cum. A few Men have cum an abnormal amount, more than I can swallow and it drips out of my mouth and onto my Lingerie. I enjoy this as well, and when others see me with cum on my Lingerie they know I am a slut and was sucking cock(s) and swallowing their cum.
Am I evolving into a Woman? I fear one day my cock will not show at all and will stay retracted inside of me. Are my desires to suck cock when I wear Lingerie normal? Will I let it go further and begin to desire more cocks inside of me? After the first time, I have often wondered what it would feel like if a Man was in me and shooting his cum inside of me and filling me up. Sometimes the urge to feel that is very strong....