Wife gets erotic massage
So, before I start my confession I need to tell a back story. My wife and I are 45 years old, and she is very hot. small waste line, fake big boobs, and beautiful. I married way out of my league. On our 5th anniversary we had our first and only swap with my best friend and his wife. She comes from a religious back ground, but has a wild side esp when drinking, but the night freaked her out a little and we stopped early, but not before my friend fucked her good, and I fucked his wife. We have now been married for 15 years and to this day when we are having sex and I talk about my friend fucking her and get detailed about watching his cock inside her she cums instantly.. It is obvious the topic turns her on. And she has no problem with giving me blow jobs while I pull up her dress going down the highway and letting truckers see everything as we pass by them.. and it turns me on allot. So,, this past weekend I hire a 27 year old hot guy that used to be a stripper, and has now turned massage therapist. He met us at a hotel and gave my wife a erotic massage. After he arrived my wife pulled her clothes off and laid on the edge of the bed totally nude. The guy started to massage her on her right side and rubbed oil all over her ass and reached between her legs and rubbed his hand against her puss. It was hot, and totally turning me on. He then had her switch sides. This time he was rubbing her left side. and he started on her back then worked his way down her legs. He then pulled her left knee up exposing her pussy. I watched as the guy massaged her ass again, then he put more oil on his hand and massaged her pussy. This time he spent allot of time rubbing her puss. And just as I was about to bust he stuck two fingers in her puss and started going after it. Thrusting his fingers as deep as he could in her pussy. OMG !!! OMG it was so hot !!! He then had her turn over and began to rub her nice tits, and started going on at how nice they were. He worked his way once again down to her pussy and then he spread her legs slightly and stuck his fingers once again in her puss !!! and started to masturbate her! Well you have to know my wife. She likes to close her legs when shes fingered cause it makes it feel better to her and that's what she did. She clamped around his fingers and raised her ass off the bed, and I could tell she was enjoying it !! and I know I was. I was expecting her to reach out and grab the guys cock at any minute. She instead asks the guy to stop !!!! I was a bit disappointed, but in a sense very satisfied just because what I got to witness was so hot. I had planned to leave and give them alone time, but couldn't bring myself to leave. It was just so hot watching! Anyway, To my problem. During the massage I tried to kiss my wife and she pushed me away. That hurt my feelings a bit, and she later told me she didn't want it to be a threesome. She also told me later in the day that she would have raped the guy if he had of taken his shirt off like he asked me by text if he should. I think her exact words were. He would have had to pay me. She also told me if I had of left she defiantly would have raped the guy. Well her pushing me away has bothered me so I asked her today why, and she said she wasn't into another guy having sex with her, and that she didn't want a threesome. Okay soo I am so confused. Cause she has also said she would let this guy massage her again. What the hell !!! Part of me wants to just throw my hands up and give up on this fantasy ! Soo, please give me some advice ! I am desperate ! Ohh she also made the statement that me just watching was just weird, soo,, obviously I should have left for a while, but do I bring it up again ? do I let it go ? Do I stop talking sexy to her during sex cause it just gets my hopes up?