I want to be drugged and raped
Every time I'm walking alone at night, or at the bar alone, my mind wanders to a rape scenerio... The bar scene is usually a mysterious looking man watching me from a poorly lit section of the place. I notice him staring intently... Lustfully at me. After I've had a few drinks, he sees that im tipsy and walks towards me slowly, smiles and politely asks if he can sit down at my table, and I agree. He asks what I'm drinking and I tell him Caribou Lou. He leaves and comes back with the drink for me and something for himself. He asks me if I was with anyone tonight, and if I have a boyfriend. I shake my head no and the corner of his mouth tightens into a twisted smirk. Throughout the night, he buys me four or five more drinks... I'm drunk, but still aware enough to be able to walk. At 1:30 I get my phone out to call a cab, but he offers to drive me home instead and I oblige. I chug the last of my drink and we head off. We get into his car and he asks me for the cross streets by my home. As I start to speak, I notice that I'm way more messed up than I should be. My vision started to narrow and blur when I feel his strong hand grab my thigh. He said through a grin "Change of plans. I'm going to have some fun with you tonight, slut. If you're a good girl, I'll let my friends fuck your tight little wet cunt! " With that, his fingers bypass the waistband of my yoga pants and dip into my pussy forcefully.
Sorry... Got off on a little tangent there... Anywho.... Is it normal to feel like this? Like, to have scenarios so detailed. I have the feeling that if anyone actually tried to rape me, that I would have the most intense orgasms ever!!!! I would enjoy it so much... The more the merrier too! I've even gotten off to the thought of holding a knife to my throat while they slam their cock into me over and over.