Victimized...but I liked it
Years ago, I suffered a traumatic experience of being attacked and sexually penetrated by someone I knew well. It happened in the presence of other people, guys and girls as well. I'm a black male and he and the others are white. I only mention that because there was a racially degrading tone to the incident. I could not go to authorities either.
Over time, I've healed, gotten back to normal etc, but unlike some people who block things like that out, I remember every aspect because having survived...I liked it. I love women, am in a great relationship now and don't even think about men in that way, but that guy's dick looked and felt great (even though there was pain) especially when he mounted me and faced me, his wiry physique was great and he was relentless.